Saturday, December 20

You represent... happiness.
You represent... happiness.
Boy, are you full of cheer or what...? You have a
sunny disposition and enjoy trying to spread
your happiness. You have a tendency to be a
little hyper, but you have the ability to make
your own fun no matter what.


What feeling do you represent?
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Yay� I have finally decided to blog.. wad an nice afternoon to laze at home and play some nice music or radio and having some occasional cool breeze entering through my window.. have been raining/drizzling ever since I reached home just now..

My apologies to suyi.. who accompanied to this job interview for a coca cola drinks promoter job today which only wanted to hire guys..LOLz.. and had to trouble her to travel halfway back to her house to get yesterday�s newspaper due to the blunder I made over the company�s unit no. haiz� anyway I got that job liaoz which means which I have to reject that robinsons one which I applied for earlier� guess this one is better coz the workplace is just at thomson plaza and allows me to do relief teaching in the morning as the working hours are from 1pm to 10pm.. and its a longer term job.. pay quite reasonable also..

Have been searching for jobs, going for interviews these few days.. yes I am kinda desperate for money hahaha.. wads worse was that I lost yiting�s ez-link card and had to give her mine! (long story) And now I am using an adult one� hmmphz.. really regretted being so kind to offer her my card� so stupid of me rite =X (yiting I know I shld be guilty but AArghz� k hope they will find ur card soon to alleviate my misery) and I had to re-register and pay for my driving basic theory test again becoz I was late for 15 mins for the test on that day! Wahzz so gek!!!! I was like begging them to let me take the test but they suanned me by retorting that they had no reason to let me take the test and claimed that if I can�t even follow the simplest regulation of being punctual,den how to follow traffic rules next time! They really sux manz.. so unsympathetic and mean!!!! Poor me.. maybe its retribution.. coz I have been letting my friends wait for me very often when I go out with them.. sheeshz.. k one more thing to add to my new year resolution: kick off my habit of being late!

Watched Lord of the Rings yesterdayz� wahZ�. Fabulous marvelous absolutely great show.. 5 stars! Didn�t find as draggy as the 1st episode, enjoyed the fighting scenes the most.. really breathtaking and exciting� hated that part featuring the struggle n fight with that gigantic crawlie.. can�t stand manz� so disgusting! Other than that it�s a definitely must watch movie!!

Love actually is another nice xmas movie not to be missed.. Sound of colours(di xi tie)..hmm watched it for free.. also not bad la.. but I didn�t really enjoy it alot..but its rather different from mainstream romantic comedy�

Received the 1st xmas card this year yesterday.. and it�s from joan! Thankew joan! Just sent my stack of xmas cards out.. dun be too sad if u never receive one from me k.. =X din really send a lot out also..

Think I need to revamp my blog� shall do it when I have time =P

Going back to HC later to watch noel concert� should be in the auditorium this time not like last year in the pathetic LT3..

Tuesday, December 16

you are paleturquoise
#AFEEEE

Your dominant hues are green and blue. You're smart and you know it, and want to use your power to help people and relate to others. Even though you tend to battle with yourself, you solve other people's conflicts well.

Your saturation level is low - You stay out of stressful situations and advise others to do the same. You may not be the go-to person when something really needs done, but you know never to blow things out of proportion.

Your outlook on life is bright. You see good things in situations where others may not be able to, and it frustrates you to see them get down on everything.
the spacefem.com html color quiz

Friday, December 12

SCORPIO MAN

A man with a foggy clouds over him. He is sensitive and easily hurt and
always feels lonely. He does not trust anyone but himself. Sounding so
negative, but he has an amazingly charisma. He is a compassionate man . He
absorbs other people sentimental feeling and pain.

He is a good psychiatrist and he could understand complex and confused
feeling. He has a hidden power that he could use it to make things happen
and do things well. He does not like people who never try to help themselves
before asking other people for favors. He is the type of guy who mostly
achieved his goal in life.Once he sets his mind for something, he will put
all his energy and efforts in it , whether or not it is a small matter or a
big project. One of the most success man in all the Zodiac.

He is a very patient man and can waits for years to reach his goal. He hates
thin feeling and weak determinations. He can not retreat or rest for long,
for he thinks life has more questions and more answer to be searched.

If he is in love, you will get plenty of love from him, sometimes may be too
much than you have asked for. He is serious about love and relationship and
will not waste time with someone he does not love whether how pretty she is.
He hardly makes mistake.

He could tell if you have any bad thought, and will not hesitate to tell you so. If you do not like straight forward sincere man, then pack your bag now. If you are an over sensitive person, try not to
ask for his comments. He will tell you the truth, even you might not be able to take it. Example , if you ask him if you are fat (and you are fat), he will say "yes, as big as a balloon". He makes such comments because he cares for you, so do something about your weight and do not get up set with him.

If he says "you look pretty today", you can be proud because he will not say
such think just to please you if he does not really mean it. There will be
both kind of people, those who like him and those who hate him. If you are
in love this guy, be strong and belief in your decision, do not be
vulnerable. He remembers all his anger and will wait for his pay back time.

He is very serious about your promise, do not promise something you could
not keep. He loves his friends and will do anything for his close friends.
He likes you to take care of him, but not in front of his friend. He is a
complex man and you will never understand what he means if you do not really
know him. He is happy to know he is a complex figure. When he is thinking or
when he needs his privacy, you should give him some space.

He memorize everything well. You may say something that you already
forgotten, but he will remember every words. He wants to be respected and
admired and at the same time he does not like people to have power over him.

When he falls in love, he really falls deep. A man in this Zodiac once in
love, he will be sweeter than sugar. He does not like a plain and simple
woman. A complex woman's mind is his venture. Always be interesting and able
to talk to him about every things in any subjects. He does not like a woman
who sits around waiting for his call.

Friday, November 28

Artistic
You are naturally born with a gift, whether it be
poetry, writing or song. You love beauty and
creativity, and usually are highly intelligent.
Others view you as mysterious and dreamy, yet
also bold since you hold firm in your beliefs.


What Type of Soul Do You Have ?
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Sunday, November 23

hahaha guess i am really super super bored.! keep doing all these stupid tests! and the test below ah... throws me back into thinking whether i want to be a doctor again... when I have like decided not to take medicine in Uni if possible...


Seems like you are not in big trouble. Actually,
this result is actually BETTER than average.
You will have a perfect job. You will make a
lot of money. The job that you will have is
being a kind of doctor. You will not marry.
Many (wo)men will like you or did like you in
your college, but you don't think anybody is
good enough for you. You will live in a two-
story house when you are older. Two stories all
for you is good enough for you! You will have
many dinners in your house. The bad news is
that you will be very lonely and sad - perhaps
almost depressed when you are older. Yes, you
will think that money is not everything in your
life. Feel good young man. You will not bald
/*_*\ Your hair will be the same as it is right
now. You will feel that you are one of the
prettiest/handsome (wo)man there is for your
age /*_*\ You will be the over average (wo)man.
In your future, nothing will hurt you. Only
pain on the outside. When you are 87 years old,
you will die of painful cancer.


The Quiz of Luck - What Will Happen In Your Future?
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Libra
You should be dating a Libra.
23 September - 22 October
This mate is artistic, refined, loving and
romantic. Though the balance of Libra can
display manipulative, overbearing and indolent
traits, this mate is sure to be a passionate
addition to your bed.


What Zodiac Sign Are You Attracted To?
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scorpios and libras dun really make a good pair i suppose? hahaha weird...
Loving
You're the loving smile,the one that is entirely
devoted to others,especially that one
person.You really can't get them out of your
head,but then,you don't really want to.


What Kind of Smile are You?
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Saturday, November 22

In no time the As are finally going to be over..yay.. can�t believe I have actually survived through it� now left with physics5 and the crucial physics3.. now an update for all the papers so far�

GP was normal la.. okie I supposed.. I actually had more time to attempt the AQ compared to prelims and other block tests..

Maths1 and 2 was easy� shouldn�t be a problem ;)

Chemistry.. one big worry man.. p2 was tricky and a bit kinda application based.. got the caffeine solvent and some other stuff wrong.. p3� haiz.. I almost broke down whilst doing that paper.. my poor time management cost me 10+ marks of blanks.. I should have just given up on the kinetics qns.. in the end I spent 1 hour on 3 phy qns.. and 15 mins on 2 food chem qns.. I was panicking like mad as a result I couldn�t think properly for that organic qns7 and left it blank� had no time for it anyway� paper1 was easy though..

Bio should be fine as well� for the option, I didn�t study in detailed enough to attempt the qns on placenta, or rather we haven really attempted one in tutorial before.. so I was trying very hard to crap for that part.. 1st time I managed to complete all the qns and left no blank =) paper1 was weird man.. some qns had mcq choices that were like so ambiguous.. in the end I kept erasing the shaded ovals on the omr as I kept changing my answers�hiyo..

Physics.. paper1� wah I really had nothing to say.. Ruth repeatedly told me and huiyu that it was an insult to our intelligence.. haha.. I was hoping to get full marks but that stupid upthrust qns tricked me! Hmmphz.. bet like at least half the cohort in sch is going to get full marks! Feel quite insecure about paper2 though.. not very easy.. it was actually quite different from normal tys qns other then for some repeat qns.. even Mrs Tan warned us to prepare ourselves better for paper3 and to pitch ourselves at prelim level instead of just doing tys as the qns re becoming more n more application based..

And here am I, still slacking since after paper2.. hmm tmr morning then start la =P

I found matrix revolution quite a nice show.. contrary to what some people said.. at least I enjoyed watching for most parts of the show and understood every single part of it.. unlike reloaded.. The supposingly eye-dazzling and impressive moves of Neo and Smith during the fighting part really amused us.. me yingfeng yiting elvin had a good laugh at it.. perhaps the storyline of revolution was kinda predictable and sort of �uncool� if u compare it to reloaded and the 1st sequel.. hence some ppl found it sucky.. but everything that has a beginning must have an end rite hahha � phrase that was constantly emphasised in the show and never fails to generate some laughter in the audience..

Thursday, November 6

HaPPie BiRtHdAY to me! Happy biRthDay to huimin!

must make an entry for today..! hahaha thanks to those of my friends who remed esp those who sent in their smses after midnite.. got the 1st one from weiping at 0001 hrs.. haha thanx bro.. and later william at 0003 when he thot he was the earliest..hahaha apprently i didn't receive huimin's msg at all though she said she send it at 0000hrs..ayez...

went to eat sakae..n the rest of day i was slacking and mugging.. sianz..i can't wait for this torturous As to end..

bumped into vincent and his ny gf on the bus to j8.. i really thot that his gf n him very compatible.. their face shape were so similar n features got abit alike too..

gonna spend the last few hours of my bday mugging.. hang one everyone!

Tuesday, November 4

DisorderRating
Paranoid:Low
Schizoid:Low
Schizotypal:Moderate
Antisocial:Low
Borderline:Low
Histrionic:Moderate
Narcissistic:Moderate
Avoidant:Low
Dependent:Low
Obsessive-Compulsive:Low

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Hahha... guess i am still quite sane n alrite despite the A levels.. huimin u must be careful.. =P

Saturday, November 1

Heya guys� wah I realised how lazy I am in maintaining my blog.. nevertheless I am back again =)

Got lots of things I wanted to say� but dunno how to start..

10 more days to maths paper1, 27 more days to freedom. Haiz I dun feel confident at all for all my subz. Except maybe for math, provided I do enough practice. Really dunno how to create the �hwa chong miracle� which every teacher or senior says is possible. All the practs are done and over with, and as usual bio pract was the one with the most controversies and greatly debated about, and our dear cambridge board must have conducted the mung bean experiment during the winter months and gave no due considerations to the excellent climate here for bean sprouting.. leading to hay wire results many ppl had in some other jcs due to the late arrival of the altered instructions from the ministry.. lucky I was in 2nd shift. Well for those who re worried about the microscopy qns and really can�t wait to find out if they got it correctly. Here�s the site I totally regretted looking at this site.

Did something quite crazy yesterday after the long grueling bio remedial yest� hahha.. I went to see SHE at taka! I bet nobody in the right frame of mind would go and waste time and get squashed by the large intimidating crowd just 10 days before our As� really got sooooo many ppl lor.. aiyoz� I went there at 7+..which by the time they already have arrived.. I couldn�t even catch a glimpse of them at all.. not even their heads.. in the end me and my frens were peering behind ppl with digital videocam so that we can see them through the display screen� so funny� we didn�t want to go there for nothing� so we persevered and decided to wait in order to get them to chop stamps on our cds� (by the way the stamps were quite ugly) haha.. we were quite lucky�coz they divided the whole taka civic plaza area into 3 sectors, and it so happened that the right sector that we were in got to get autographed first� you know they sealed off all the entrances and exits of the whole civic plaza and dun allow ppl to come in.. so u can imagine who many body guards n policemen were there.. quite amazing.. selina was looking so sianz and tired of stamping the cds, but she still managed to smile at me! Hebe looked sooo good in real life� really kawaii sooo cute� can�t stand� too bad cannot shake hands.. not like elva last time� so in the end I only waited for about 1hours+ odd or 2 hours, to get to see them close up� quite worth it.. while our dear senior HH was there for 15 hours�can�t believe it� hhah fan club�

Friendstering has just became one of the most bo liao things to do online.. I am quite irritated by it n condemn it, but I am still on it and really hooked on to it for the first few days� it seems to me as some stupid race to see who has the most friends and a tool to show off how many friends u have., However, reading other ppl testimonials, writing testimonials for ppl and receiving it from other ppl are quite fun. But come to think of it.. who will write bad things in testimonials one?

Sunday, October 19


BLUE



You give your love and friendship unconditionaly. You enjoy long, thoughtful conversations rich in philosophy and spirituality. You are very loyal and intuitive.




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Friday, September 26

Woahz.. it feels sooo good to slack without having to worry!! =) the torture is finally over� continuous mugging for slightly more than one month was mad�

Hmm let me recall� GP compre was bad�wad monument stuff� I couldn�t relte or understand the passage at all.. felt that my essay was fine..

Physics pract was fine too.. think can help pull my marks.. maths paper1 was encouraging~! Haha.. but a misleading beginning for the prelim man.. chem pract was my first nitemare.. I have never been so screwed before.. pour the wrong solution dissolve the wrong mass so there goes my titration, stared blankly at the calculations for the kinetics qns simply becoz I am stuck at the first part, quite doubtful about my QA� and later I found out that for my titration the �supposingly wrong� solutions n mass I added was actually the same as the ones we were suppose to use and while I wasted my time n panickly tried to redo my titration, I made some mistake unknowingly and got horribly inaccurate reading� it would be perfectly fine if I stuck with my �suppoingly wrong� reading.. this is going to pull my marks down man..

Physics Design was fine� Biology paper 1 was hard man�so many thinking qns�like one of the hardest mcq that I have ever done.. managed to finish it la� paper two.. erm quite okie I think.. though as usual I didn�t have time to do like 10 marks..

Chemistry 3 I think was quite hard.. but I think I can pass it..so okie la.. Bio pract was arghz�. I screwed my microscopy qns la.. den like got 10 marks no time to do�which I actually knew how to do given time.. physics1 was disgusting.. hope I dun fail that.. paper2 was relatively okie.. but is physics�my weakest subz.. dun think I can do well also.. maths 2 was hard� I could only blame myself for not re-revising my pure maths.. chemistry 1&2 like not very dificult leh.. yet I think I didn�t do as well as I think I could have� so gek.~ questions are doable lor.. really regret slacking the day before..

Haha after regretting for two days, I piaed for my bio3, but� the structured was damn hard lor�guessing my way through the qns.. essay was okie la.. last paper physics3.. not very good also.. not because it was hard but simply because it was physics.. haha..

Going to jb tmr =) ! yeah off to slack more le..~

Thursday, September 11

Mid Autumn Festival!! �Yeeeeeeee� sound of the firecrackers and sparkles have been going on and on ever since I finished dinner� Saw no moon when I popped my head out of the window... think it�s coz of the rain just now.. saw a lot of children walking around with lanterns instead� got playground downstairs mahz.. haiz� really getting old liaoz.. somehow missed the times which I could go downstairs and play with candles and run round with my lantern.. hahaha.. think I stopped doing that after pri6 or sec1.. been so sian forcing myself to study.. think my bio�s gone case le.. haven touch ever since the hols started.. did study some parts and faithfully did all the lecture revision exercises before hols la�but dun think its going to help much.. almost forgot everything liaoz� maybe I should give this sat�s maf a miss� but den and again.. it�s the last maf or event before we graduate leh� ayezz�see how�

Listening to david tao�s ultrasound now.. think its quite nice� I still feel that his best song is sha tan.. and maybe tian tian also.. ooh left turn turn right turn is quite a unexpectedly nice movie! Quite hilarious.. but rather different from the normal lovey dooie clich� story plots.. I think the theme music and songs really played a very important role in making the movie a success� anyway I watched it free and effortlessly thanks to my friend who painstakingly went to queue but in the end cannot go.. hahaha�

Rgh k need to get back to my books� =(

Friday, September 5

Haven blogged for ages� I almost couldn�t recall my blog�s password�hahaha.. here I am slacking my time away.. I am behind my rev timetable for like 1 or 2 days � and I think the situation is gonna get worse.. doubt I can catch up.. sheesh both my brain and my �heart� just refuse to cooperate.. HOW!? I want to do well for this prelim leh.. but after almost one n a half year of struggling has made me very tired n sick n on the verge of giving up le..

You know.. sometimes I really wonder why I never seem to be doing the right thing ever since I come into HC? ItZ because I am lousy? Or am I in the wrong place? Or am I just not fit to be here? I really think my life in hwa chong has really been full of struggles and agony.. somehow I feel that it is here that made my confidence level dropped a lot.. n same goes for my morale.. plunging like mad.. I have never felt so inferior before.. failing this n that.. and not being able to do well in my cca.. like feeling no sense of satisfaction.. no sense of purpose� well this was how terrible I felt some time back..

I think its partly because of my character of wanting to prove myself and be useful (tho in a not very obvious manner).. haaha redundant? Frankly I am not satisfied with just being someone too ordinary.. but I dun really like being in the limelight for too long as well.. shit I dunno wad I talking.. in fact I wanted a more vibrant college life.. but things just dun turn out the way I want� n all these while I have been learning to accept things as it is.. sometimes I feel that I am losing my will or strength to try to find my way out..

I dunno why I am writing all this shit.. again� think its just the exams coming and I am feeling �tortured�.. and I really need an outlet for these negative thoughts.. I must really tell myself to stop whining and go and piAZ..

Hmm physics pract today was fine� hope I can get above 30 hahaha.. so that can help me pass my physics.. I actually finished early for both experiments.. quite rare.. coz I m always the last few ppl to leave the lab durin normal physics pract lesson�

Contemplating whether I shld go and see the air force display tmr.. it would be great to take a break off my study schedule.. but the thing is that I haven really been studying for the past two days�hahaha see how la.. anyway I wasn�t selected a s a potential pilot.. offered alternative post tho( those sit at the control tower n zhuo bo one) haha.. can consider if I do my A levels too badly.. the pay is quite good haha�

Some problems with my mum�s health again� I really hope she will be fine.. Haiz�

HmmZ� k I must xia ding jue xin to fully conc durin this week of break n piA!


Monday, July 28

Decided to stop mugging for the day since its getting quite late� promised myself to sleep early but ended up blogging... I realized that sufficient rest is really impt for me... if not I will be damn grouchy and sian for the whole of next day and sometimes even makes me feel depressed and dun feel like talking to anyone at all... or I will be damn clumsy and blur... like PE on the other day... I wonder how some ppl can still look so bubbly and energetic and show no signs of panda eyes though they only slept for a few hours...

Went for national day preview on sat... was quite surprised when sengwei called and asked whether I want to go when he had extra tickets... anyway I went with his two classmates and one other guy which is one of his classmates BF� I know none of them anyway�fortunately they were quite easy going so I didn�t feel very awkward... the ndp was quite impressive and interesting� stefanie sun didn�t turn up for this preview! *Disappointed* and guess who replaced her... Fiona xie... =( she was practically screeching and shrieking when she tried to pitch high notes� the pre-parade was just some emcees Sharon au gurmit jean danker blah� going around trying to hype up the crowd with some cheers, kallang waves, blar� there was this �Singapore chant� that we were suppose to shout, it goes like �One People, One Nation, One Singapore�.. I find it rather amusing and dumb when they flashed these words across the gigantic screen at the stadium... hahha... nevertheless I found myself shouting it towards the end of the show� hahahha...

The parade was quite standard la�some new pattern or formation here and there� during the mass display show after the parade� they kept screening videos of the PM and SM Lee delivering speeches bout how we managed to stand together and braved through the SARs thingy n etc. hmm one thing about attending ndps is that when u re at the stadium you would suddenly feel damn patriotic.. The same feeling I had the other time when I was one of the participants... the spirit was damn high� for a moment u feel that we Singaporeans are really united� it makes one ponder whether we will really be that united when crisis of a much larger scale like a war strikes Singapore... whether we really have so much love for our country, whether we are willing to sacrifice or even die for Singapore... for one thing I was sure is that I really loved Singapore that night� hahaha... sang all the songs damn loudly�

I think is much better to watch the mass display home coz we can get a helicopter�s view of the field just by sitting in front of the TV� I couldn�t really figure out the patterns that they were forming... coz I wasn�t sitting at the grand stand�so the orientation isn�t really rite� nevertheless� the fireworks never disappoint us� so spectacular� real awesome and B-E-A-Utiful� it was soooo damn near� they even gave some of us umbrellas coz the ashes mite land on us� and indeed they were quite bit raining down... bit eeks but the fireworks were just too nice that we ignored those stuff�

Oh the goodie bag is quite nice too� a lot of stuff inside more than wad I expected� the design of the bag is quite nice too... surprisingly... not obiang at all...

Yikes... I didn�t do any tut at all this weekend� only managed to revise bit of math and physics� dunno whether this is the right thing to do also... heck� Tues still got bio option test... arghz... k I better go sleep now wait tmr I feel damn sianz again

Saturday, July 19

Finally after so many days.. i feel much better today... real bad gastric flu manz.. as i was telling ruth and zixuan durin phy lect that day.. it was not the diarhhea that made me feel sick but the cramps n contractions.... of the intestines... den they immediately bursted out laughing like mad coz they thot i sounded like u-know-what (girls will know)... aiya... how i know the words that i use would fit the direct desciprtion of that thing...hiyoz... ayez...quite funny... but the pain really not funny...

didn't go for organice chem lect tho i bought the notes... so dumb... i didn't feel like waking up la.. coz it was raining non stop in the morning... so nice to sleep.... nvm la mon den copy..

rgh i can't believe i falied my GP compre! 1st time in a blk test... i thot the compre was easy...shucks...hven get to see it as i came late on fri hope my essay will be fine man.. other subjs... i scrapped an E for both chem n phy.. quite lucky... but not very encouraging of coz...not pending much hopes on bio either...

oh ya both guitar and string got gold! woW! and CO got top in SYf too... if only our track n field was better... i was still hoping that we can get half or full day off... ayez...haha

Tuesday, July 15

Dunno why I suddenly had the urge to blog.. when I actually dunno wad to blog or dun have much to say..

Had a terrible stomachache this morning.. and its still making me feel super uncomfortable now.. really didn�t feel like going to school today� but still I rushed down to school in a cab this morning .. ayez I reckoned its becoz of all the rubbish I ate last weekend.. went swensens on fri. den sat I ate satay beehoon, curry chicken, ice kachang. Ice blended coffee� den sun ate lots of junk food�plus cookies n cream freeze� blarz� I can imagine all these stuff churning in my stomach and intestines lor� hope it will be better tmr�

Tmr�s string syf� go huiyu u can do it! Weds guitar.. jiayou suyi willz yf & yiting! Bring back the golds! =) weds got band syf finals at esplanade also� but I am not going la�

Dunno why I feel quite numb these days.. not physically I mean�is like I dun feel happy.. neither am I depressed� like reached stage of equilibrium.. hahaha my chem sux.. but I do feel calm and peaceful.. not so excitable I guess.. dunno if it is a good thing.. the good thing is that I dun feel so restless la.. but will still feel tired every now n den.. aiya I also dunno wad I talking liaoz..

Drew up my revision schedule.. looks mad� real mission impossible.. k will try to pia la�

Block tests results haven been exactly encouraging.. except for maths la.. got a B! =) I expected an A actually.. but nvm la.. I think its quite an achievement liaoz.. the rest of sciences�really cmi.. failed my chem structured, phy mcq� wad more can I say.. just hope for the best lor� prob now is the hope that our As will come in prelims(though I doubt it) and A level(must come by then) that keeps us going..

Many ppl have been asking me wad I intend to study after As.. but I haven really made up my mind� medicine has always been interesting to me.. but I m not sure if I can cope or I really want such a hectic lifestyle as a doctor� really no time to enjoy one.. I m not sure if I have such deep passion that allows me to sacrifice my time n etc.. n studying medicine is expensive too.. considering I m not very well off� I dowan to spend away all my parent�s money.. moreover my parents objects me taking medicine.. say its too stressful n a dumb choice.. so I also dunnoe.. decide den la.. ayez
Well gtg�

Saturday, July 5

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Sunday, June 22

i look like a cooked lobster now manz....*ouCh*.. dio sunburnt after a swimz... aiyoZ...but my relatives say i look nicer n healthier...hhahahha...

hve not seen my cousins for a long time until todayz... coz today my family gathered to have a feast at marina south...some long beach dunno wad restaurant situated at the end of the whole stretch of shops n restaurants....grandma's birthday... wah the seafood was real fresh!! yumZ yumZ manz.. i haven ate so much for some time =P... still feeling bloated now...

my cousin dio sispec course... he's like sooooooooooooooo extremely skinny now lor....iyoz...real bad lor...i see liao i also feel sad...not to mention how xin tong my auntie n uncle is... i really dowan to become lydat manz.. see him until i start to feel scare bout NS also.. but he kept assuring me it should be fine... n he said BMT is fun...just he sway kena sispec and horrible ex commando instrcutor..so he v jialat... hiyoZ jiayou jiayou manz... so far all my seniors like quite okie i think... saw kaimun at hc bus stop few days ago...asked him whether school life or NS life is better... n he said both re very stressful...hiyoZ...just diff forms... i planned to slack thru my NS lor.. hahahaha but i think the training does make some people look better la.. so hope NS will be fine and do me good...

anyway...i still got my blk test prelims n As to tackle b4 NS comes...ayeZ suZ... i practically did nothing todayz.. n the worse thing is i dun feel sinful or anything wrong about it... though i worry about not being able to pass my blk test lor... shucks leh... i think is becoz i have lowered my aim for this blk test... from getting quality grades to just aimming to pass... which is very bAd lor... coz the risk of failing is higher lydat... it is impossible to finish revising evrything lor...n sometimes i find it dumb to stress myself over it...but still.....muSt BUCk uP mAnz...anyway lastt week le... shld have the urgency liao...so i shall not waste anymore time here...

Friday, June 20

hey hey here i am blogging.. currently at the library...slacking...huh wad else =P...going home soon i think. in a very crappy mood..shux i think i confirm cannot finish evision one lor n there's no use getting depressed becoz of it... just have to try me best not to slack n finish wadever i can.. lalala

had band farewell on tues.. was quite fun la.. better than wad i had expected.. played silly games like throwing waterbombs and some lame obstacle course...which got us all wet but at least not muddy... spent 8 bucks on a pe shorts lor...wad duhz...who ask me forgot to bring..had a simple and super crappy session similar to like"investiture" or "handing over ceremony" before the games too... ayez time flies man... was quite surprised by my juniors who made an effort to buy and/or make us some stuff... hahaha i thot they would sure heck and woun bother abt doing that... quite sweet of them...

got this nemo shirt from huiyu.. prob becoz i helped her play in her concert... so nice and sweet of her..coz in fact i din do much lor... thanks! =)

actually i really feel pointless about bloging... coz i have been writing my own diary as in really write in a book la.. den i write alot of stuff which i never post here.. is either i dun want or i dun dare to post it here... so ayez... mite not be blogging very often liaoz...

Tuesday, June 17

getting real bored...dun feel like typing much also... hhaha...movie finding nemo great.. so cute=) stole some of these tests from my senior's blog..


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Tuesday, June 10

WoAhZ I finally decided to have an entry..*clapz clapz* argh blk test two is soo near n for the past few days i haven really been mugging.. except for trying to finish those physics remedial mcqs� haven even came up with any stardee plan. think for a start I shall at least start listing down all the topics I need to study for all subjects.

Wanted to go band chalet today one coz kinda enjoyed myself durin sentosa�s band chalet last year and moreover its like one of the last band gathering b4 the horrors of exams set in.. but dunno why when I reached school today became abit sian tiao.. and became not v enthu liao� maybe overwhelmed by the fact that we have so much work to do again�den originally arranged with dennis to go with him one den he also sian tiao den told me he dowan to go.. den my section like no one going(anti social as usual) den wait I go there myself so weird or rather wait go there I feel so sian or have the awkward feeling n feeling of being left out again� so here I am at home hahaha..

Had fun yesterday though.. hAd sec4 class gathering.. as usual me n kenvin had to do the job of calling everyone up..hahaha.. was abit disappointed at first coz quite lot ppl last min tell me cannot come� aiyoz.. so forever left with the more enthu half of the class ppl coming only.. went seoul garden.. so exp� maybe can go marina south next time. Think both are about the same its just the air conditioning that made the difference. think most of us looked quite the same.. think coz we see each other quite often la.. the most is half a year nv meet.. crappedz lot as usual.. den walked around at orchard until 10+ den we decided to go play pool� I think I played like shit la.. too long nv touch the cue stick.. skills getting super rusty.. reached home at 12+ hahaha

Was talking to my ex form teacher den he was telling us that the sec4s now re having lessons from 8 to 3 every mon weds fri thru out the whole june vacation..ithink.. he said it was the new principal�s brilliant idea..kaoz�.that�s really crazy lor.. more lessons # better results wort.. I really pity them.. =P.. heard cath high�s estimated ranking is gonna be 19 this year� so the drop its not as bad as we have previously been worrying about� ayez..

Went soiree last fri.. the turn out wasn�t as bad as wad chek or kc had been telling me.. like only 200+ tix sold few days b4 the concert? wad rubbish... The audit was relatively packed except for the back corner sector seats.. i went in late n couldn't find seats.. the standard of the performance was in fact reasonably good...not as horrible as wad they described last year? Didn�t regret coming just because I wanted to support my friends..coz the whole concert was quite nice.. theres this guy that played n sang his self composed song.. wahz he�s really good� although its another one of those mellow love songs that are sought after n heavily commercialized nowadays.. his talent n ability to compose such a nice song that captivated many audience really was quite nan de.. hmm got potential manz.. my classmates played quite nicely too.. will n yf looked quite beng haha� the rock band performance by keeyeh dennis mingzhen n xianwei was superb too� I preferred the second song to the first tho they used the first song as their talenttime entry.. both songs were self composed.. quite wasted they din get into the finals.. it wasn�t really a �rock� performance la.. but they sounded quite good� hahah din know that dennis n keeyeh could sing quite well..hahaha

Argh I want to go ktv� but no time!! N I am broke!

I am playing triangle for inspirationS!! I think so if nothing goes wrong.. Hahaha so weird� hope its fun n easy so I woun be nervous on stage.. so why did I buy the tix for.. should just huiyu let me go watch free concert hahaha

Just talked on the phone with cheowz for like almost for a hour� n most of the time he went on and on regarding his prob with this girl.. somehow he gets getting into uncalled for relationships problems all the time nowadays.. n keep associating himself with crazy, immature, childish girls who have the looks I guess� aiyoz� I think I cn�t help him much coz firstly I really dun really have much experience on such stuff n I myself also at a loss regarding such problems.. even up to now� so my approach now is not to dwell or think about it and concentrate on my studies lor.. hope I will not regret anything.. haiz just have to say shun qi zi ran lah

I was quite delighted to receive jingwen�s letter by post today.. wad pleasant surprise� I thot she had forgotten to reply me coz have been waiting for her reply like one month.. have been quite a comfortable n nice experience writing to her.. also can get to know first hand info regarding any junior�s scandals haha� thot got retribution coz I took the �initiative� not to reply to lynn after angel mortal ended on v.day coz I felt quite meaningless to continue writing to her.. its just hard n awkward to write to her.. can�t clique la just have to say.. quite sad la.. coz like now I see her also nv say hie.. maybe bcoz mgs girls are dao? Or I too dao? Dunnoe�

K off to eat supper! N watch wo cai later! N sleep! Great I have not done any work today� hAhaha shucks�

Friday, May 30

Haven been feeling good the whole of this week... feeling abit depressed + v tired.. watched Bruce Almighty today. I loved it man! It certainly uplifted my spirits quite a lot! I was laughing thruout the whole movie almost from the beginning to the end.. the whole of this week I didn�t really laugh so whole heartedly lor.. and there�s also lesson to be drawn from in this movie.. so felt really good after that. Jim Carey is real hilarious and good man! He�s the best! Theres going to be liar liar this sun on channel i.. think I going to watch it again.. =P Anyone who is reading this n haven caught Bruce Almighty I tell u this is a must-watch movie.. forget about matrix if u�re thinking of catching that first� this is more worth ur money n time =)

Hmmz tmr is the last band pract of this term.. but not our last final band pract coz I think we are forced to play for band fiesta in july.. so band�s not really over yet..

Dun feel like blogging liaoz� mite be going to sleep soon..

Sunday, May 25

If one�s mood or emotion is represented by a sinusoidal curve, den my mood today must be at its peak of minimum point.. felt really horrible today� dowan to say why.. looking forward to school tmr though.. most of the time makes me feel better after lame jokes or pranks from cheery classmates haha� sounds pathetic.. shucks I have tons of uncompleted tutorials tho.. managed to clear my maths discrete tut though =) so quite okie la.. there are so many good shows tonight.. matrix 1, gladiator, etc etc.. think I gonna catch gladiator later..

Regretted taking too little photographs for capriccio� still have like 1 or 2 more pix den the whole film can be send for developing..

Tmr is jingwen�s birthday.. happy birthday to my angel�

Hmm I think I just can�t get enough of fan yi cheng�s piano and chu ci zhi wai.. kept replaying it.. maybe shld go check out his cd..

Looking forward to 4-8 class outing in about two weeks time.. now like nothing to look forward to liao� sianz� hmm maybe soiree and inspirations?.. still contemplating whether to help string play the triangle just for one piece.. like abit duh� hahaha see how..

Saturday, May 24

wow i have not blogged for ages man... listening to the recordings of the pieces that we performed at vch last night...not our live recording la..just the cd version ones.. shucks i dunno why i think i am going to miss having band practs... felt abit sian now that both our concert n syf is over..WadS wrong with me huh =P??! maybe its like nothing to look forward to except to going home everyday to study..now no more excuse liao.. haha i felt weird n in fact abit empty when there isn't pract today.. is not that i am very close with the band ppl..in fact i hardly know them at all and often will feel left out one..only close to my section and few other ppl.. perhaps i miss the music (or some ppl call it noise haha) and my section?

wAhz i realised that i am quite lucky to be able to play in VCH after joining band for only about 1 year.. my band senior was complaining yest.. but i was really super tensed for the 1st two pieces...the 1st one because it was the 1st...the 2nd one coz i always have had problems with that piece...n i abit off in fact yest... haha jingwen said i looked fierce.. lucky thing was that i didn't blush..haha its a good feeling to have classmates n friends supporting.. thanks for coming for those who came..well erm i did have a good time playing the triangle haha..

mr leng was so funny n sporty yest.. could tell that he was quite happy yest.. we helped him celebrated his 34th birthday on stage hahaha.. he's real cute n funny guy..according to the girls..coz many was asking if he's married..lol hahaha he's nice la... he's a good conductor as well.. =) .. I got evryone in my section this puny bottle with a msg inside...den i think accidentally broke one of junior's bottle...so guilty... sorry senghan.. must make up for u next time..arghz my parents were blaming me for not giving them tix to go watch band concert.. ayez its not as if ur son is some bigshot...so i see no point in letting them go..?

watched X men with huiyu and weiping on thurs...think both me n huiyu had half the mind of going home den we just sympathised with weiping coz he was so enthu n eager den nobody else in the class wanted to go with him haha.... mainly becoz he wanted to go town n buy pressie for his band ppl for the concert.. i didn't regret la.. it was a nice show...! glad to watch it b4 it closes.. its real cool better den matrix.. iceman so cool lor.. how i wish i could chill my drinks whenever i want to drink it.. like storm also.. huiyu lost her wallet n only realised it the next day morning.. luckily according to her there wasn't much mooney n impt stuff inside...

had the stupid entrepeneur seminar today..i was dragging myself to school today lor..kept falling asleep during the talk n joaling had to keep reminding me JT is around.. was quite impressed by the last group's presentaation whicih grapped eveyone's attention... their style was pro n comprehensive la.. they won in the end... went to SIM for lunch after that.. den went home n sleep...... wanted to go swimming one coz the wether's perfect for a dip in the pool but i slept thru the afternoon n evening..haha

hmm i replaying the recording again........

Sunday, May 18

watched matrix today with kenvin and kc after band pract.. wondered how come band ended early today at 4 but in the end also delay until 5.. sorry la yiting n the rest i couldn't wait.. i think it takes ages for our class to have an successful class outing.. n the possibilty like not v high.. anyway it was not as "wow" as i thought la... there was lot of talking n i almost fell asleep for at least twice.. but no doubt moves were impressive and stylo.. quite cool..there wasn't much plot development actually i think..but i think its still worth watching la.. ate and crapped + talked alot at the food court after the movie stayed till about 10 den go home..

Friday, May 16

haha this is not good...

Haven blogged for quite a few days.. hmm let me organise my thoughts first.. had a fun bio pract on wed.. we dissected a rat! hope I am not getting saddistic but I think william is..haha.. Initially I was not exactly positive about it coz had quite an bad experience last time in sec4.. that time during a teacher�s demonstration of rat dissection.. he used a rat that was much more alive lor.. it was still WARM and SOFT as it was not really dead yet but just put to sleep I think�den when he opened it up.. u can really see the heart still beating and slowly getting slower and finally stop as he tried to pried open more parts of it�so cruel!! Fortunately we were given cold and stiff rats that looked n felt vv dead.. I was quite amused about how we made a fuss about selecting the rats we want to dissect.. nobody wanted rats with eyes open and yellowy stuff(shit) at you know where.. haha it was quite interesting la.. me and weiping managed to keep the whole process blood free� unlike william.. which had the rat�s organs bathed in a pool of blood lor.. he even ripped off the head and broke the skull(eekS) and took the brain out.. I was quite surprised when he said he didn�t get any nightmare during these few nights..

Shucks I really think the band is running out of time man� and I really think we dun really sound okie� dunno in time to put up a good performance next Friday or not.. hope we can make it.. I was struggling through my part on weds practice.. I think everyone was lar for that particular piece then I wanted to practice today but too bad the score with my conductor so felt quite boliao to practice for other parts coz they all are practice b4 or quite easy or dumb to practice.. k shall not say too much wait u all dowan to come for concert liao..

Didn�t manage to go out or watch xmen or matrix or ktv on vesak day.. rested at home, watch tv and did some work la� so at least during tutorials today I wasn�t stonning.. it certainly feels good to have done my tuts haha� hope I will switch into mugger mode soon.. like wad yf says �evolved� into super mugger.. but I want to watch matrix first! Haha..

Ayez tmr still got bio lect� still on plants�think I m going to be super sianed or sleepy again.. the good thing is it starts at 8.30 instead of the usual 8am. half an hour more to sleep =P

Sunday, May 11

think i am beginning to like this drama serial call xin xian ren in chU.. it is about mental patients one.. got 3 characters in the show..one has Alzhemiers, one has stealing tendencies and the main character(Stephen Fung) think was like abused when young or have v bad n torturous childhood... den is about wad they experience..their problems, how ppl see them n how their families cope n everything la.. v interesting n v different from those typical chinese drama serials.. think psychatrist really a great job.. can have a chance to understand n help these ppl..but defintely not a easy task..

i think i cannot even finish probability1 today...shucks...argh...



Saturday, May 10

I feel that this is very true of me...or more true..


THE INDIVIDUALIST
Enneagram Type Four

The Sensitive, Withdrawn Type:
Expressive, Dramatic, Self-Absorbed, and Temperamental
(The Avoidant, Depressive, and Narcissistic Personality Disorders)

Basic Fear: That they have no identity or personal significance
Basic Desire: To find themselves and their significance (to create an identity)
Enneagram Four with a Three-Wing: "The Aristocrat"
Enneagram Four with a Five-Wing: "The Bohemian"


Profile Summary for the Enneagram Type Four
Healthy: Self-aware, introspective, on the "search for self," aware of feelings and inner impulses. Sensitive and intuitive both to self and others: gentle, tactful, compassionate. / Highly personal, individualistic, "true to self." Self-revealing, emotionally honest, humane. Ironic view of self and life: can be serious and funny, vulnerable and emotionally strong. At Their Best: Profoundly creative, expressing the personal and the universal, possibly in a work of art. Inspired, self-renewing and regenerating: able to transform all their experiences into something valuable: self-creative.

Average: Take an artistic, romantic orientation to life, creating a beautiful, aesthetic environment to cultivate and prolong personal feelings. Heighten reality through fantasy, passionate feelings, and the imagination. / To stay in touch with feelings, they interiorize everything, taking everything personally, but become self-absorbed and introverted, moody and hypersensitive, shy and self-conscious, unable to be spontaneous or to "get out of themselves." Stay withdrawn to protect their self-image and to buy time to sort out feelings. / Gradually think that they are different from others, and feel that they are exempt from living as everyone else does. They become melancholy dreamers, disdainful, decadent, and sensual, living in a fantasy world. Self-pity and envy of others leads to self-indulgence, and to becoming increasingly impractical, unproductive, effete, and precious.

Unhealthy: When dreams fail, become self-inhibiting and angry at self, depressed and alienated from self and others, blocked and emotionally paralyzed. Ashamed of self, fatigued and unable to function. / Tormented by delusional self-contempt, self-reproaches, self-hatred, and morbid thoughts: everything is a source of torment. Blaming others, they drive away anyone who tries to help them. / Despairing, feel hopeless and become self-destructive, possibly abusing alcohol or drugs to escape. In the extreme: emotional breakdown or suicide is likely.

Key Motivations: Want to express themselves and their individuality, to create and surround themselves with beauty, to maintain certain moods and feelings, to withdraw to protect their self-image, to take care of emotional needs before attending to anything else, to attract a "rescuer".
Got the link from huimin's blog...


Free Enneagram Test

THE HELPER
Enneagram Type Two

The Caring, Interpersonal Type:
Generous, Demonstrative, People-Pleasing, and Possessive
(The Histrionic Personality Disorder and Factitious Disorder)

Basic Fear: Of being unwanted, unworthy of being loved
Basic Desire: To feel loved
Enneagram Two with a One-Wing: "Servant"
Enneagram Two with a Three-Wing: "The Host/Hostess"

Healthy: Empathetic, compassionate, feeling for others. Caring and concerned about their needs. Thoughtful, warm-hearted, forgiving and sincere. / Encouraging and appreciative, able to see the good in others. Service is important, but takes care of self too: they are nurturing, generous, and giving � a truly loving person. At Their Best: Become deeply unselfish, humble, and altruistic: giving unconditional love to self and others. Feel it is a privilege to be in their lives of others.
Average: Want to be closer to others, so start "people pleasing", becoming overly friendly, emotionally demonstrative, and full of "good intentions" about everything. Give seductive attention: approval, "strokes," flattery. Love their supreme value, and they talk about it constantly. / Become overly intimate and intrusive: they need to be needed, so they hover, meddle, and control in the name of love. Want others to depend on them: give, but expect a return: send double messages. Enveloping and possessive: the codependent, self-sacrificial person who cannot do enough for others � wearing themselves out for everyone, creating needs for themselves to fulfill. / Increasingly self-important and self-satisfied, feel they are indispensable, although they overrate their efforts in others' behalf. Hypochondria, becoming a "martyr" for others. Overbearing, patronizing, presumptuous.

Unhealthy: Can be manipulative and self-serving, instilling guilt by telling others how much they owe them and make them suffer. Abuse food and medication to "stuff feelings" and get sympathy. Undermine people, making belittling, disparaging remarks. Extremely self-deceptive about their motives and how aggressive and/or selfish their behavior is. / Domineering and coercive: feel entitled to get anything they want from others: the repayment of old debts, money, sexual favors. / Able to excuse and rationalize what they do since they feel abused and victimized by others and are bitterly resentful and angry. Somatization of their aggressions result in chronic health problems as they vindicate themselves by "falling apart" and burdening others.

Key Motivations: Want to be loved, to express their feelings for others, to be needed and appreciated, to get others to respond to them, to vindicate their claims about themselves.

didn't manage to watch Xmen today.. maybe going to give it a miss since matrix is coming out next week. i definately will want to watch matrix first..den no time for xmen liao.. just found out that there will be band pract from mon to thurs next week... yar we having pract on public hol...thats mad lor....gimme a break man! n i feel so dumb today lor..i like nv play anything proper today except for practising the j2 item in the morning.. was slacking or stoning or crapping in the afternoon when the sc nominees conducted the band so that we can select the next batch of SCs.. so sianz...abit regret going band today haha..there wasn't proper practice..feel so fei..k i shall stop complaining..

k i really need to conc and do some serious work tmr.. going out for dinner tmr..eh i din buy anythiing for mother's day..feel bit guilty but i have planned to buy her sth on her birthday(which is like quite soon) that shld be able to make up for this time..

i just realised that i could have spent abt 100 bucks lesser if i bought my hp like one week later...freekO lor.. i shld have have been more patient..

i feel like going ktv again hahaha...

Friday, May 9

feeling much better and more normal today =) hope wp they all also okie liao..

bought another ji mi's book called yue liang wang ji le.. hahah i read finish even before reaching home.. and i dun really understand haha.. think i will read it again soon..hmm interesting...yf bought the the dunno wad ji mi chang ge n qiuling bought the xiang zuo zou xiang you zou..so can borrow from them =)

co got gold n they got into the finals too =).. so zai! congrats! Pls win NJ!! haha =P can't tahan them liao...got into finals for evrything..choir band n co...
are they really that good? hahaha

k nothing much to talk about..

Thursday, May 8

I realised that most ppl are not as strong as wad ppl percieve and wad they display or have to show..hAiz.. hMMz anyway wasn't feeling good for the whole of today... i dun understand how come it can affect me so much(refering to syf) to the extent that i dun have mood to carry on doing my tutorials though they have piling up like mt everest. been stoning most of the time esp durin tuts today... i feel quite sad even though i m just normal non-key player... i really cannot imagine wad weiping and the other more enthu ppl are going thru.. sianz... ruth was saying choir had their mass crying session yest...hope we woun have anything of that sort man. Hope band will be fun n fine this sat...got elections too..

was really engrossed in this ji mi's book titled di xia tie in school today...thinks really nice.. i bought another of his book named Pourquoi or pu gua shi jie..it did help me feel better after reading that book... it speaks of the wu2 nai4 in life in a very light hearted manner..its one of those books that will leave you a smile after u finish reading it.. think i m going to buy more of this kind of books tmr..hahaha...

hope everything will be fine tmr =)

Wednesday, May 7

Had SYF today! Wahz the experience was like taking a roller coaster ride lor.. didn�t had a good start in the morning.. conductor couldn�t get the band to be in tune n sound good within time frame so had to eat into our break time and rushed to VCH after the run thru� den at VCH.. I think we played our compulsory piece reasonably well.. den erm our choice piece..abit the cock up.. partly due to unfamiliar percursion instruments that were provided n also some other reasons.. was abit depressing.. den went lunch at P.S with my session after bringing our instrus back to sch..of coz think the whole band ponned CT. =P.�we crapped a lot durin lunch�den end up being the last section to reach VCH after lunch.. actually dunno why I so enthu want to go back to VCH to listen to other jcs and wait for results there� anyway almost the whole band went la.. anyway I wanted to hear RJ n TJ as well� I have to say TJ was really impressive� cheowlit next time your school got band concert can ask me go..

Waiting for the results were torturous lor�the suspense was really killing us� the feeling was entirely different if u were waiting elsewhere like in school.. I dunno why I suddenly became like so nervous even more nervous when performing on stage.. even though I am just the �triangle man� or wadever clive or my classmates call me�bleahz.. really adrenaline rush.. really scared if we cannot make it.. we heaved a great sigh of relief when they announced we got Gold� everyone was just grabbing each other�s hands.. n mind you I was sitting with a whole row of guys.. hahaha quite funny� ayez we didn�t get into top5 though.. was quite saddening n disappointing la . actually not long ago I didn�t really care if we get top5 n would be satisfied if we got gold.. but the past few weeks of intensive practice n hard work n much encouragement and support from our conductor shld have been worthy of us trying to aim n get into top5.. haiz.. many of the girls cried la.. lot of VJ ppl cried also la.. we were all v buay song about NJ being one of the top5 lor..(btw top5 are AC, SA TJ, RJ, and NJ) they were before us during the performance so we heard them clearly n all of us agreed that NJ sounded not v good lor�.confirm worse den us one.. haiz couldn�t stand them� hahaha ..ayez think the judges kelong haha.. anyway wad to do music is subjective lor.. conductor was saying they got gold because the NJ conductor is retiring..den the judges are fulfilling his last wish..hahaha.. wonder how true is that� we later den proceeded to lao pat sat for dinner.. where key yeh treated ppl at our table there chicken wings�so good� kiam siam weiping didn�t treat though we kept bugging him.. so he was constantly being suaned n niaoed.. haha so was dennis.. all of us kinda cheered up la..

Not feeling v sad liao la�its over anyway� gold�s fine too.. hope everyone else is okie.. now got more time to study in june le! Die ah today marks the third day of me not doing any work.. super lag liaoz.. n capriccio coming so still going to be busy w band.. must pull my socks man.. but I v sianed n tired now to do any work.. shucks I m going to stone durin tuts tmr again.. weiping just now reminded me tmr got maths class test on roots itz? Heck liaoz.. at least did some of the tutorial qns liao la..so its going to help

Eh btw thanks huangyi for helping me download games tones n pictures into my phone.. he downloaded few of my fav songs! Like I believe(My sassy girl theme song) K-ge zhi wang n wu ke qu dai.. tHanks a lot =) I hope that didn�t cost u any money.. Buy u a drink tmr.�

Saturday, May 3

Dunno wads wrong with me today lor�felt v sian n low after band pract today.. like depression lydat�has got nothing to do with band pract since everything went rather well n smooth today� Now listening to cd in my room alone lazing around.. feel like finding someone to talk to but dunno find who.. aye I dunno wads wrong with me sometimes� how come I will feel lydat once in a while�I think I was much happier in my sec sch days�not that I dread jc life�it is also fun sometimes.. but think last time got less worries and was less mature to think about things.. dunno how to put it� its just a entire different experience and feeling now� well I guess we all have to learn to grow up�n this is just part n parcel of life�

Seems like there isn�t going to be a 4-8 chalet in june due to poor response n many reasons la.. think most ppl want to conc on studies and in fact 3 weeks its a rather short hols to cover so much work�beginning to worry abit liao� must pass my physics next blk test no matter wad ..moreover some of us got CCA commitment also� I think band might make it into top5 this year provided we maintain our standard n dun flop this weds.. mr leng wants us to get top band�hmmzz�ehz�lets see lor.. =)

Just realised �somebody� n �somebody� re wearing shoes of the same exact design�.hahaha scandalous manz.. =P
AYez...can't believe i actually came too early for band pract..den now slacking in the library..*bored* now.. =P

Oh met up with cheowlit n daryl yest at suntec...den went n.y.d.c where i ordered this three amigos pasta..it had like beef, italian ham etc etc tasted quite yummy... tho later zixuan told me actually their baked rice was better ..nvm can try it another time.. den we just crapped alot...noticed that cheowlit wasn't really himself as in not as cheery la...den he told me he's homesick..i thot he's caught up with some unnecessary relationship problems again....=X hmmz stupid sArs...think he's just one of the many malaysians or foreigners that get stuck in sg for like dunno how long n dunno will be for how long..poor thing...cheer Up mAnz...

went to chinese high to eat during break on fri and as i was returning back for lessons...cheeky huimin hid behind some huge potted plants den went "boo!" as i walked past...well she was lucky that i did kinda got a shock as i was busy smsing while walking...bleahz...i will have my revenge next time if i rem hahaha..

den during maths/bio tut as usual joan n ruth were conveniently disturbing me as i was sitting in front of them...a perfect target for them to throw or shoot wadever rubbish they can find at me...=( hiyah i not angry la...but find they all too funny n harmless to scold or be angry with mah...but den elvin who sat beside me apparently couldn't stand it as he was the victim of many "misfires" n turned back scolded. "can u all stop this crapZ! ...."hahaha bad mood i guess....

hey gtg liaoz...band is starting i supposed ...

Thursday, May 1

bOught a 6610...quite cool..going to download stuff into it...k need to start saving liaoz.quite broke again..slacking at home the whole day..quite a timely holiday i have to say after napfa which made my whole body ache like hell..i scraped thru it with the help of mr lee kai sin....hahah so kind help me add 2 cm for my standing broad jump to pass...

abit disappointed coz thot our class was going out...aiya used to it liao always last min cancel...not a bad idea to slack at home also..

felt that we didn't really play well at inner plaza that day think coz the band didn't warm up properly n it was like v noisy...n i kinda screwed up some parts for at least a few bars coz i was playing in place of my junior ..so hm when u come for band concert shld be able to hear it nicely played..haha...mr leng's attitude like suddenly got 360 degree change these few practs..kept praising us say until as if we re going to get top band..well he said he had too high expectations of us n in fact we sound lot better than many schs even those ppl in white - exact words.. well.....we shall see lor...weds jiu SYF liao... n i realised i m going to miss bio pract..ah i wan to disect rat leh! hahah evilz...disected sheep's heart on wed...realised that squeezing the sheep's heart was quite fun ..hahahah

there was blackout on tues during bio lect...haahaz i was dozing off when the whole lt just turned dark..den lina sitting beside suddenly screamed " shui dong wo!" den the "smart smart" joaling immediately say "jianwei u pervert how come do u do thAt!" aye i m innocent lor...i m so guai n decent how i would do such a thing...den lter i discovered tht it was the even "smarter" hongye who was the culcript..hmmphZ...haha



Saturday, April 26

today got a very funny percursion tutor took us for sectionals during band pract...he's very knowledgeable la i have to say..and learnt alot of new things from him...have to say he kinda rekindled my interest bit in the midst of boring n drilling practs to prepare us for syf.. think mr leng really flared up today...in the absence of our whole percursion section coz we were upstairs...so also dun really know wad happened...den he didn't conduct us for the whole afternoon..just sat there in the corner giving the black face.. think he's super disappointed n pissed with us.? ayez dunno la. think weiping n the rest must be tremendously stressed up now..

i just realised i got to go "sao3 mu4" tmr...cannot dun go la...been quite some since i last went to visit my grandpa's n etc graves..so think i shld go..looks like i need to wake up early tmr to get my work done...intend to cut my hair tmr one...its really getting irritating with it touching my ears n curling up all over....haaha...but like no time tmr..mite be getting a new phone tmr..yAyz..=P though my bank passbook is gonna look pathetic again ayezzzz...
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In Middle-earth, Heng Jian Wei was a
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Friday, April 25

Haven blogged for quite some time..quite a hectic week i have to say...den too tired to do my tutorials and not to mention to come online...actually i kinda agree with suyi lor...find it abit no point in bloggging coz there are lots of things that i want to blog about but due to lots of reasons including worrying abt too many ppl knowing wad i really think just prevent me from typing wad i want to say sometimes.

Went to esplande concert hall on wed to catch rj band concert...well i really have to admit the band and the venue itself were equally impressive =O the acoustics in the hall was v good i think...i dunno how to descirbe la its just good.. den at the beginning we were like wahz....n really felt that our band really was pale in comparison to them...haiz....hope we can make it in SYF manz...but i think the concert though did displayed their superb skills...but the repertoire was quite sian lor...the pieces they played...erm not v entertaining i think...i nearly fell asleep...hahaha...but overall still quite nice la..

went for NS checkup todayz...i was in quite a rushz walking v quickly almost equivalent to running liaoz when i reched there...suppose to be there by 11 den i guess i left school too late.... den when they take my temp...den 1 moment i saw it shooting up to 38....den i waS like shit....are they going to send me to TTS!!! but the thermometer v weird...the temp slowly strts to drop agin to 37.3 lydat den it started to beeped....quite funny...so its alrite lor.. got pes A dunno whether it is a good thing or not...i thot they will find sth wrong with me coz i often feel going to faint after vigorous exercise...fainted durin pri sch b4 after PE...but that time the doc didn't find anything wrong with me...

got back my GP n bio le...GP was alright...got b4 as usual have been getting b4 all the time since last year... bio was okiee la..not too happy abt it n not too sad abt it alos...got D only...ayez heck laz...

Saturday, April 19

hEYz....didn't blog yest coz i dozed off while trying to reading my bio kidney notes..watched johnny english on the good friday hols..itS such a lame show!
there were some parts it was soo dumb that i couldn't make me laugh..quite a no brainer show but no doubt overall is an entertaining and hilarious movie..quite a good destresser..joker's show la..william din make it..so left with me josh elv clive n daida...just realised that the juniors went p.s to watch johnny english too...

Had band today...i was kinda bored to death durin the pract while the rest of the band was tunning/ fixing their stuff... got quite a scare today when it seemed that wp was on the verge of breaking down when he was talking to us....haiz..sheesh i really hope we can make it in the end manz.

need to do homework on sunday liaoz...really got tons of homework ..lagging like shit....i was telling kenvin u name it and i have it.. jialat ahz..



Friday, April 18

i realised that all my blog entries i started by saying i m v tired hahaha....hmmz must take the opportunity to rest during this long weekend..

just went for huiyu's church musical...the musical was about the life of jesus from the day he was born till the day he got crucified la...n the whole session was talking about how great jesus and that kind of stuff la...i mean some stuff i agree with la but i just felt quite uncomfortable thruout the whole session think zixuan felt the same too....actually i din really expect that la but it is not the first time i experienced this type of thing la.. i mean i am quite undecided n confused lor....i mean i dun think i want to remain as a freethinker..n sometimes i even see myself being a christian or catholic...but somehow i still quite weird n awkward leh..i dunno wad i want lor...hmmm really not a good thing to ponder about after a hectic week of school...hmm...i guess i will eventually grow out of the stage emerging wad i really want...tho i hope tht will be like soon also...aanyway this dilenma of mine has existed kinda long ago but i nv thought of it for very long time until today when i stepped into a church again...

argh i feel abit restricted sometimes in posting wad i want to say here...hahaha hmmz though i dun think many ppl are reading it i just dun feel secure...think coz i m those type of person that dun usually open up to ppl alot except a few close frenz...

going to watch johnny english tmr... though got quite pissed before thatz in having to ask ppl n ppl giving me lukewarm responses...hope its a nice show tho..

Wednesday, April 16

SUpEr SupEr tired manz..just finished band pract just now...had a very "heavy" session..Mr Leng kinda had enough of our haphazard and not up to expectations playing n sort of exploded...everyone were quite shocked i think when he chased the whole tromB n trumpet session out of the room.. den after playing for awhile...he kinda lectured us for abt slightly more than half n hour...i think wad he said was very true lor...its really a waste if we let such petty problems which could be solved by our own initiative hamper us from getting wad we want... hAiz...sometimes i am guilty of wad he mentions la...but is like i dunno why i can't immense myself fully n give in my 100%... perhaps i feel quite fei in band sometimes due to my amatuer level of understanding n knowledge of music...den i only given v little parts...but den n again...i find myself quite fortunate to be able to play for SYF...No doubt i will keep reminding myself to be positive and continue learning as we go along..so far my section have been quite alright l...but my section abit dettached from the band also...aye...this is another problem la..dun wish to elaborate now....

Had council elections todAyz..i was super bored by the Q&A session only got "woke up" by either silly or cool comments by the few of them...in the end weifng mikail benjamin and zhien all got in..congrats man...i think u all were greatz..but i din voted for kevin la and he really din get in...ayez....dunno leh...i didn't feel like voting for him lso..dunno why...k...kaimin joined band today...i din know he was from TCHS band too...including him got 4 juniors in my junior class in band now + yintat daryl n leehui...so many...

going to catch a drama tmr nite...so better go sleep early...going to watch rj concert nxt weds...@ esplanade! think will be nice =)

Tuesday, April 15

feling kinda tired now..ZzzzZ.. forced myself not to sleep to do some work and i ended up only 3 physics mcqs and immediately got distracted by the HC yearbook...n here am i online...Slack man...saw some v funny and interesting pictures hahahaz...found my pic in the OAC section and not the band section...wad an irony manz. ayez well....

band practs getting more n more intensive...can't help it we really dun sound up to standard...den during most band practs i feel so fei most of the time.....=( n when i go home i feel so sian till i dun feel like doing anything..some more going to miss lessonsz...getting bit worried...argh musn't slack! IF i only i can get some motivation from someone or somewhere sometimes....gonna spend my 4 periods of council elections wisely by doing some work...hope i do manz...=) this weekend must do wadever stuff i have i can..

Oh ya....as expected n predicted i failed physics...ayezzz n it wasn't by abit lor..tho its still n O..hiyoz...i reaally dunno wad to do with physics man.. Was QuitE happy with my maths...GoT a B.. this is my first time getting a B for anything....=P but i think i was quite lucky l.. i only expected a E or D...

HeY hope our class ppl can go ktv on fri...dun wanna to disappoint daida again n again lor...promised him to go ktv quite long ago den up to now nv mterialise...he has been msging me so i feeling quite paiseh when i tell him it is cancelled or postponed or wadever all the time..

k going off noW...tiRED...


Monday, April 14

k i am utterly piSSEDD by this stupid blog thingy...i spent like 45 mins typing a v long entry n i didn't save or copy it to somewhere else..den when i want to publish it the error msg came out sying the html is too long...den when i click bck i just couldn't retrieve wad i typed...WTF.....n now mum is scolding me for using the com so late....heck i not going to retype liaoz..sucks...stupid blog....why no body warned me bt thatz.. HMMPHZ

Friday, April 11

ZZzzz think i going to fall asleep soon..And theres still bio lect tmr 8 to 11 *sighz*

juSt finished bloCk teSt today....Finally man..after like soo long..dun think i m gonna do well tho..at least i am quite sure about maths n physics...physix think v high possibility of failing liao....10 ppl in our class fail... i must be one of them =( Ayez.. hope bio n chem will be better tho.

JuSt went ktv just now instead of sentosa due to the rain...wahz...5 hours of singing...n only $8+ really quite worth it...really good place to go next time. -- KstAr @ LuCky ChinAtown..quite guilty tho...coz i told parents i went sentosa instead of ktv....heck lA...

k i think i wanna go sleep liao...actually thought of quite lot of things to blog but my mind seems quite empty now leh...filled with ZZzzz only i guess...hope tmr will go out...at least in the afternoon...coz dad not working...den bound to be some squabbles here n there btw mum n dad....think they today bad mood or wad la.....heck...just dunn wann be in the midst of their arguements which more than often appear to me as, silly n uncalled for n can be prevented.....bleaahz....

Tuesday, April 8

hmm yingfeng juST called..pHEwz confirm tmr no blk test..so i dun have to rush through my chem like mad fearing the possibility of test tmr... seems like this sars hols din really help lot in my revision..kinda slacked it away...well...take it that i will stardee harder in the june hols... normally i would also be playing in the first week of june so ply less in june lor...*hopefully i will be discipline enough*

hAs been pouring like mad today...happen that today is also leslie cheung's "funeral" day..933 has been playing his songs since noon time...haiz quite a sad thing manz...den saw so many ppl crying on tv in HK...

Tmr gotta go school liAo...quite looking forward to seeing everybody...wonder wad kind SarS precaution they gonna have..hmm shld i watch wo cai later or shld i go slEep....? or shld i continue studying chem? blEahz.. =P

Monday, April 7






What month should you have been born in?

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Sunday, April 6

Did some bio todayz...n its relly v little...haiz.. nothing eventful today..in fact everyday seems uneventful for me....*boREd*

Saturday, April 5

School reopening on wedz.. hmmmZ...that means only got 3 days to study if exams are on wed...SIANz... so tmr i must go stardee ..so may not be blogging... Quite unfair sec sch ppl until 14th...as if our immune system stronger than them lydat... haha...but pri sch kids...k i got nothing to say...nvm..

hmmmz took me like1+ hours to get this blog in shape...who ask me to be a html idiot...hiyoZ...wondered who so free go invent those type of senseless commands...n computing ppl have to know them like we know maths...dunno how they memorise n make sense out of it..thankS kenvin for ur help anyway...

heard from somewhere that when got ppl who work in tan tock seng (bearing the badge n uniform) enter an mrt train or bus....they always have a seat coz evryone siams away from them the moment they stepped in... in a way its quite funny...but we do have to rememeber that they re the most respectable ppl we have around here...

k mothing much to talk about liao..going to watch tv later...haiz my last day of slacking...

Friday, April 4

YoiEeee slackin again...trying to find some pictures to add to this blog...so dull...my bio still got alot haven revise..jialat dun care liaoz...only going to pia if tmr they say the sch hols are not going to extend... missing school bit though i still hope we have extened hols

had no idea who got voted out of american idol yesterday...dunno why i din manage to tape the last part.. hmmphz..i think simon is too harsh on those contestants...but well...it woun be interesting to see praises all the time as well..spice up things mahz.

just msged her today..just to find out how shes doing..think i really v bo liaoz..k nvm haha...

been rainnng all day n jingwen said she going to ubin today hahha....good luck to her man....think she must have been a luo tang ji..

found some vvv nice pictures of SHE..=) -----> http://members.lycos.co.uk/sheforums/index.php?s=6e5d02e3123d8a27f3afa8d4cd282251&act=SF&f=14

managed to change the light bulb in my room fo the first time...couldn't stand it flickering non stop...normally this type of thing is my dad do one...hahah its high time i learn to do things myself.. hey gtg liaoz...

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TEST RESULTS
You are seeking an affectionate relationship, offering fulfillment and happiness. You are capable of powerful emotional enthusiasm. Deep down, you are a kind loving person, always helpful and willing to adapt yourself if necessary to realize the bond of affection that you desire. But you need the same consideration and understanding from others and it is this need that will sometimes hold you back... so let go, trust and you may pleasantly surprised at what happens.

At this time you 'need to be needed' and again you 'need to need'. You have had this feeling for some time now and you are looking for someone who could share a close bond in an atmosphere of shared intimacy. You have the belief that with the right person you could conquer the world.

The way things are, you feel that you are stuck in a rut and there is not much you can do about it. You feel frustrated and inhibited but if you can find a way to let yourself go, you may find that things aren't quite so bad as perhaps you thought they were. One consolation is that since you are an extremely emotional individual, with the right person you may be able to release some of that frustration and tension with some mutual tender loving care.

The unwanted situation in which you presently find yourself is causing you considerable stress and frustration and your feeling is that whatever you try to do to remedy this is to no avail. You feel trapped. You want to get away from it all as you feel that you are banging your head against a brick wall getting nowhere. You have turned your aggression inwards and you are furious with yourself for not being able to achieve your goals. You need to go away, somewhere where there are less restrictions and where you can be free to make your own decisions.

You are completely worn out and you are not in the mood for any further demands on your resources. The situation - such as it is - has rendered you quite helpless, unable to continue the mental battle that you have been pursuing for some considerable time. Enough is enough. All you would like to do now would be to have some time for yourself, to find a peaceful situation where you can recuperate in your own time.
prince.
You are the little prince.


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Thursday, April 3

HAizzzzzzzz As expectEd i can't go ktv or pool =( actually i know mum sure say NO one but i still 'ying zhe tou pi' go ask her.. k nvm loR....lalalala........So So i shall stay at home n mug? sheeshz..or slack rather...need to study bio...sickening lehz. why hols so pathetic one..

Dad's having fever n flu...and they are getting real paranoid..haiz....dun think there's anything miis wad...just normal flu...do recover soon dad..

aye i dunno wad to blog about..hahaha my life is so boring. i hoping the sch hols will extend now...so i dun have to study my bio now...why do they have to wait till sat den announce...they announce now den if confirm got sch i will pia...den no sch i can slack like shit mahz. hahaha think i like super lazy..

k relli dunno wad to say liaoz. gotta go ...

Wednesday, April 2

Argh i really hAve no idea wads wrong with this blog....can't seem to get my posts publish....can't generate the page..aiya...sianz...

i can't believe i got tricked by cheowlit yesterday bout school reopening on thurs...i am so dumb...but the website seem so real..i wonder who so bo liao go and edit the channel news asia webpage..... http://66.28.45.137/sgsars/index.htm


Leslie ChuenG juSt commited sucide yEsterday... hAiz dun understand why ppl give up their lives so easily when so many ppl out there are fighting so hard to survive.real sad thing man.



Mum just when to see doctor...den her bone density test wAsn't v good.. some parts of her bone was getting brittle. =( so had to be on medication hAiz....why does she have to face all these stuff one after another...hope she will be fine and strong.. think shld be okie..heard my aunt also got such problem also but think shld be okie.. so fine la sometimes i think i myself like v insensitive or unfilial wad i dunno how to put it...feel guilty aiya i really dunno how to say..just feel that i m not as sensible as wad i shld be... gonna get her a nice mother's daypresent..



juSt watched My Sassy Girl...think its quite a nice show..quite different from those typical love stories..but i woun want to have a girlfriend like that girl hahaha...tho the girl quite pretty.. I believe is a v nice song too.. =)



Shit la I MUST STUDY!!! k going off to study after blogging... can't stand myself so slack.!
1st APRIL 2003

i StartEd thiS purelY out of fun..hahaha dunno whether i will continue or not..hope i will.. getting v bored here... under house arrest cannot go anywhere except fren's house...but disturbing them like not vv good also... so have been staying home these few days..Bored bORed bORED...!! Argh Save ME~!

heard they re going ktv on fri..hope i can go! haven touched my bio since last week... must start tmr.. must sleep earlier tonight wait like past few days slept at 2 den morning no mood to do anything at all..

Eh i totally suck at this html thingy...complete idiot at it..the templetes all quite ugly...den i also dunno how to custom make my own...so now just have to make do with it..Ayez...