Woahz.. it feels sooo good to slack without having to worry!! =) the torture is finally over� continuous mugging for slightly more than one month was mad�

Hmm let me recall� GP compre was bad�wad monument stuff� I couldn�t relte or understand the passage at all.. felt that my essay was fine..

Physics pract was fine too.. think can help pull my marks.. maths paper1 was encouraging~! Haha.. but a misleading beginning for the prelim man.. chem pract was my first nitemare.. I have never been so screwed before.. pour the wrong solution dissolve the wrong mass so there goes my titration, stared blankly at the calculations for the kinetics qns simply becoz I am stuck at the first part, quite doubtful about my QA� and later I found out that for my titration the �supposingly wrong� solutions n mass I added was actually the same as the ones we were suppose to use and while I wasted my time n panickly tried to redo my titration, I made some mistake unknowingly and got horribly inaccurate reading� it would be perfectly fine if I stuck with my �suppoingly wrong� reading.. this is going to pull my marks down man..

Physics Design was fine� Biology paper 1 was hard man�so many thinking qns�like one of the hardest mcq that I have ever done.. managed to finish it la� paper two.. erm quite okie I think.. though as usual I didn�t have time to do like 10 marks..

Chemistry 3 I think was quite hard.. but I think I can pass it..so okie la.. Bio pract was arghz�. I screwed my microscopy qns la.. den like got 10 marks no time to do�which I actually knew how to do given time.. physics1 was disgusting.. hope I dun fail that.. paper2 was relatively okie.. but is physics�my weakest subz.. dun think I can do well also.. maths 2 was hard� I could only blame myself for not re-revising my pure maths.. chemistry 1&2 like not very dificult leh.. yet I think I didn�t do as well as I think I could have� so gek.~ questions are doable lor.. really regret slacking the day before..

Haha after regretting for two days, I piaed for my bio3, but� the structured was damn hard lor�guessing my way through the qns.. essay was okie la.. last paper physics3.. not very good also.. not because it was hard but simply because it was physics.. haha..

Going to jb tmr =) ! yeah off to slack more le..~

Mid Autumn Festival!! �Yeeeeeeee� sound of the firecrackers and sparkles have been going on and on ever since I finished dinner� Saw no moon when I popped my head out of the window... think it�s coz of the rain just now.. saw a lot of children walking around with lanterns instead� got playground downstairs mahz.. haiz� really getting old liaoz.. somehow missed the times which I could go downstairs and play with candles and run round with my lantern.. hahaha.. think I stopped doing that after pri6 or sec1.. been so sian forcing myself to study.. think my bio�s gone case le.. haven touch ever since the hols started.. did study some parts and faithfully did all the lecture revision exercises before hols la�but dun think its going to help much.. almost forgot everything liaoz� maybe I should give this sat�s maf a miss� but den and again.. it�s the last maf or event before we graduate leh� ayezz�see how�

Listening to david tao�s ultrasound now.. think its quite nice� I still feel that his best song is sha tan.. and maybe tian tian also.. ooh left turn turn right turn is quite a unexpectedly nice movie! Quite hilarious.. but rather different from the normal lovey dooie clich� story plots.. I think the theme music and songs really played a very important role in making the movie a success� anyway I watched it free and effortlessly thanks to my friend who painstakingly went to queue but in the end cannot go.. hahaha�

Rgh k need to get back to my books� =(

Haven blogged for ages� I almost couldn�t recall my blog�s password�hahaha.. here I am slacking my time away.. I am behind my rev timetable for like 1 or 2 days � and I think the situation is gonna get worse.. doubt I can catch up.. sheesh both my brain and my �heart� just refuse to cooperate.. HOW!? I want to do well for this prelim leh.. but after almost one n a half year of struggling has made me very tired n sick n on the verge of giving up le..

You know.. sometimes I really wonder why I never seem to be doing the right thing ever since I come into HC? ItZ because I am lousy? Or am I in the wrong place? Or am I just not fit to be here? I really think my life in hwa chong has really been full of struggles and agony.. somehow I feel that it is here that made my confidence level dropped a lot.. n same goes for my morale.. plunging like mad.. I have never felt so inferior before.. failing this n that.. and not being able to do well in my cca.. like feeling no sense of satisfaction.. no sense of purpose� well this was how terrible I felt some time back..

I think its partly because of my character of wanting to prove myself and be useful (tho in a not very obvious manner).. haaha redundant? Frankly I am not satisfied with just being someone too ordinary.. but I dun really like being in the limelight for too long as well.. shit I dunno wad I talking.. in fact I wanted a more vibrant college life.. but things just dun turn out the way I want� n all these while I have been learning to accept things as it is.. sometimes I feel that I am losing my will or strength to try to find my way out..

I dunno why I am writing all this shit.. again� think its just the exams coming and I am feeling �tortured�.. and I really need an outlet for these negative thoughts.. I must really tell myself to stop whining and go and piAZ..

Hmm physics pract today was fine� hope I can get above 30 hahaha.. so that can help me pass my physics.. I actually finished early for both experiments.. quite rare.. coz I m always the last few ppl to leave the lab durin normal physics pract lesson�

Contemplating whether I shld go and see the air force display tmr.. it would be great to take a break off my study schedule.. but the thing is that I haven really been studying for the past two days�hahaha see how la.. anyway I wasn�t selected a s a potential pilot.. offered alternative post tho( those sit at the control tower n zhuo bo one) haha.. can consider if I do my A levels too badly.. the pay is quite good haha�

Some problems with my mum�s health again� I really hope she will be fine.. Haiz�

HmmZ� k I must xia ding jue xin to fully conc durin this week of break n piA!