The ending of grey's season 5 was horrible. horrible. Why do they have to write such tragic endings for those ppl who may be leaving the cast.
Its the end. I told you so. And i did not screw the DNR like they did.
Sunday, May 24
Saturday, May 23
Met up with some classmates over dinner at shokudo bazaar place and drinks at paulaner jus now. Nice catching up n hearing stories from them from diff hospitals. haha 1st time gatecrashing their gang for outing. but we still lack representative from SGH n NUH! ahaha.
the vocals at paulaner was good but no live drumset! only guitarist! no drumset makes the songs incomplete n sound hollow even though the vocals are damn gd. And the songs were kinda a tad slower compared to timbre substation. I think i still prefer timbre.. timbre shld jus poach their singers over than it will b perfect.
Life n death in the hospital is common but still kinda disturbing. Happened to b in the wards for 2 consec days when some1 passed away.. n today there was this patient moaning n yelling in pain for like so long during some procedure while we were having our discussion at the nurse station.. n yup eevryone seemed numb to it. its kinda sad. that numb feeling to life n death, ppl suffering, i dunno jus sudddenly feel that eventually we will be some unfeeling robots going abt jus doing our job n ya u know wad i mean. Maybe i wil be some unfeeling robot someday too. But i think these 2 weeks at the wards was really fruitful n interesting n I think i will enjoy being an ward pharmacist though the work is tough n tedious. But prob just for a few years i will move on.. see how.. nxt mon OP. Packing machine here we're gonna transform.
the vocals at paulaner was good but no live drumset! only guitarist! no drumset makes the songs incomplete n sound hollow even though the vocals are damn gd. And the songs were kinda a tad slower compared to timbre substation. I think i still prefer timbre.. timbre shld jus poach their singers over than it will b perfect.
Life n death in the hospital is common but still kinda disturbing. Happened to b in the wards for 2 consec days when some1 passed away.. n today there was this patient moaning n yelling in pain for like so long during some procedure while we were having our discussion at the nurse station.. n yup eevryone seemed numb to it. its kinda sad. that numb feeling to life n death, ppl suffering, i dunno jus sudddenly feel that eventually we will be some unfeeling robots going abt jus doing our job n ya u know wad i mean. Maybe i wil be some unfeeling robot someday too. But i think these 2 weeks at the wards was really fruitful n interesting n I think i will enjoy being an ward pharmacist though the work is tough n tedious. But prob just for a few years i will move on.. see how.. nxt mon OP. Packing machine here we're gonna transform.
Friday, May 15
Last day of work for the week tmr! finally. Actually hospital attachment so far hasn't been too bad. jus abit tired but probably not as tired as those at OP. Been quite fun and interesting and really learnt alot. Everything from pharmpract, law, pharmaco1&2 n PT is jus haunting u non stop. And its fun moving ard the wards n looking at the case notes but half the time dunno wad is going on, watching them dispense n being questioned(tts if we know the answers) haha n having really intriguing discussions. I think i like working the hospital.. for now... but lots of reading up to do also.. hope my enthusiasm can last..
Went to the ICU and HD wards today. the feeling was really different form the last time i was there. And its weird. I mean i feel that I am abit cold blooded in a way. Like we can still joke about this unknown indian man who has no name n like so sick in the ICU. Like kinda getting abit numbed to seeing so many patients with so many conditions. Tts probably jus part of getting used to the job bah.
And i was laughed at for not being able to pronounce escitolapram today as in i really broke up the parts like es-ci-to-la-pram really vividly. then the pharmacist laughed relly loud n still ask her colleagues to guess wad drug is tt. HAha bish. but ok la. She's been a nice n gd teacher for the day. shall not bear grudge on acct of that!
Went to the ICU and HD wards today. the feeling was really different form the last time i was there. And its weird. I mean i feel that I am abit cold blooded in a way. Like we can still joke about this unknown indian man who has no name n like so sick in the ICU. Like kinda getting abit numbed to seeing so many patients with so many conditions. Tts probably jus part of getting used to the job bah.
And i was laughed at for not being able to pronounce escitolapram today as in i really broke up the parts like es-ci-to-la-pram really vividly. then the pharmacist laughed relly loud n still ask her colleagues to guess wad drug is tt. HAha bish. but ok la. She's been a nice n gd teacher for the day. shall not bear grudge on acct of that!
Friday, May 8
I slept like 9 hrs straight from 2 am to 11pm.. wah tts damn amazing. Haven had undisturbed sleep for so long in a very long time! haha. the temp job i have found was canceled as now they dun need ppl to take temperature le (some admin job at SIM) and just nice our preceptorship has resumed. Yays.
Time passes so fast when u're idling n having fun. Its friday alr.. n Mon work starts!
Haha i think i need a break from alcohol n clubbing. Not that i drink or club alot anyway! No worries its not u gals faults. I am jus getting abit old. I still like te music n company =) I wan to sing K and mahjong tho!!
Time passes so fast when u're idling n having fun. Its friday alr.. n Mon work starts!
Haha i think i need a break from alcohol n clubbing. Not that i drink or club alot anyway! No worries its not u gals faults. I am jus getting abit old. I still like te music n company =) I wan to sing K and mahjong tho!!
Thursday, May 7
I CAN'T DRINK.
That was the conclusion i got. Was damn sian yesterday. I didn't even feel very high and wasn't gibberish or shouting or wadsoever. I jus suddenly had a visual blackout and I can't see for nuts like all of the sudden in the dancefloor 1 hour after sharing the 2 jugs of long island. So little rite. I freaked out and jiawei had to drag me out of zouk. I totally couldn't see where i was walking including ppl n steps. I didn't even have the pukey feeling until i forced myself to puke. Then i had no more mood to club so i decided not to spoil the fun for the rest n cabbed home. Then when i reached home, I realised my bag was still at the baggage counter n i did not have keys to my house. Then i had to wake my parents up to open the door for me.. haha they didn't scold me n my mum just said serves u rite this morning. She say u shld experience how horrible it is to be drunk then nxt time u woun drink so much. The problem was I didn't even felt like i was drunk. But then n again, now really got abit of phobia liao. Damn sian.
That was the conclusion i got. Was damn sian yesterday. I didn't even feel very high and wasn't gibberish or shouting or wadsoever. I jus suddenly had a visual blackout and I can't see for nuts like all of the sudden in the dancefloor 1 hour after sharing the 2 jugs of long island. So little rite. I freaked out and jiawei had to drag me out of zouk. I totally couldn't see where i was walking including ppl n steps. I didn't even have the pukey feeling until i forced myself to puke. Then i had no more mood to club so i decided not to spoil the fun for the rest n cabbed home. Then when i reached home, I realised my bag was still at the baggage counter n i did not have keys to my house. Then i had to wake my parents up to open the door for me.. haha they didn't scold me n my mum just said serves u rite this morning. She say u shld experience how horrible it is to be drunk then nxt time u woun drink so much. The problem was I didn't even felt like i was drunk. But then n again, now really got abit of phobia liao. Damn sian.