Have to thank mum for asking me to watch 稀游记 the Ch U documentary abt extraordinary Singaporeans in foreign lands. The episode aroused my interest as it was featuring the life of a medical social worker in kunming, yunnan who mainly visits/counsel ppl who are mentally ill. And she mainly works with 傈僳 (li su) tribe ppl.. which happens to be the same tribe of ppl we interacted with back in my dec yunnan trip.

What she does is indeed admirable and respectable. She doesn't get paid a single cent and have to climb like how many thousand ft and go thru god knows wad kind of treacherous journey just to visit one or 2 mentally ill patient/orphans every week/few days. Compared to the mini hill we climbed up to the leper's village then, which was a one off thing and not a v difficult journey, I really shldn't complain.

Then there was this 26 yr old male patient that they featured, who suffers from schizophrenia. He has been locked up in a wooden fenced up area prob abt 1m x 1m space for 8 yrs. EIGHT YRS. and he hasn't came out since. he has been sitting there for eight years. forgotten how to stand. forgotten how to do aything. Doesn't bathe. Does his business at a corner. CAN U IMAGINE. How can such a thing happen to anyone, to any human? And whats even more shocking and saddening its that when he was locked up there 8 yrs ago he did it willingly as he was too guilty that he set his own house up on fire. As in he JUST SAT THERE and WATCH THE FENCE BUILD UP ARD HIM. 8 YEARS since. 8 YEARs. I'm jus speechless. 心情好沉重. SIGH.

The state of lack of medical knowledge, treatment and misconception of many diseases are just appaling. The idea of a lepers village at the top of a secluded hill away from civilization, and that fence thing are all a result of lack of medical help and knowledge. The people simply jus do not know wad to do with these group of ppl with medical condition, hence they can only think of such saddening and extreme methods to isolate all these patients. Its jus damn saddening. And that medical social worker was saying how she wished that there could be doctors treating them, sufficient meds, rehab and stuff which is near impossible in these poverty stricken rural areas.

I suddenly have the urge to go back to yunnan. But what i can do? bring more trouble to them? Sighz. I'm simply not ready to give everything i've got. We definitely benifited much more from the trip than those ppl we were trying to help.

What can i do from the knowledge of pharmacy? Can I use it to help these ppl? Am i that 伟大 in the 1st place? What do i really wan out of these 4 yrs of pharmacy.

I'm thinking too much. And getting emo. time to sleep. I jus hope that all these ppl get better treatment.

Went to sentosa on sunday. It wasn't crazy kind of fun but it was jus nice..the new attractions weren't exactly fantastic. but sentosa does seem to be a much nicer place.. as in def a lot more details and effort went to make the place more pleasing. flowers blah.. yah u get the idea. guess eventually it was the company n v relaxed mood that mattered more. =)

First day of work... Oh i'm employed by AH after all as pharmacy assistant. At the outpatient pharmacy. Finding my job so mundane and stressful and tiring but time really flies. Its almost no time to rest/slack. Totally felt like a factory worker. My job is to help pack all the prescribed items lo.. requires u to be accurate and fast.. the amount and types of drugs they have is of cox small house see big house compared to my NS days. See until i blur blur^infinity... Made a couple of mistakes but they din scold me la.. but still very paiseh. But I nv get wrong drug or wrong strength at least. Haha self consolation. Its always the quantity. Dunno eh jus can't count properly. Quantities so weird cox 1 strip of tab, some is 14, some is 7, some is 30. den the quanity required is in few hundereds sometimes. like 123? or i did one with 1068 today. Siao one la. Certainly need time to get used to it. But the ppl there are not bad la quite friendly..

Suddenly, the job as a hospital pharmacist(in the hospital pharmacy per se) seems alot less appealing tho they aren't the ones that pack(sometimes they do when short handed), they check thru prescriptions, fill in/key in orders, counter check the stuff we pack, dispense/counsel patients, consult/discuss with doctors/patients over the phone, manage ppl like us....and lotsa of rubbish i haven go find out from them.. Hope to find out more abt their jobscope as time goes by. but there are other pharmacists in the hospital la.. those in the wards..blah still got alot of other areas i guess.

almost blew my brains out jus now.. bout of sneezing started while i was on the bus to marina sq(it went to shenton way instead =( too long nv take 162 beyond city hall) so i popped a panadol flu. Or paracetamol + Pseudoephidrine (generic name i shld start using them more often) haha wadever. den jus now after i showered it came back again so pop goes in another tablet. but now ok le. weird..

Went to k box today. pity we didn't have time for the jin1 qu3 s. All the deng li juns and xiao hu duis were left unsang. And still got alot of new songs i wan to sing.

Changing Appetites dinner with ahnehkins... the food is not bad. but jus rem to go there on tues, fri and sat.. cox tues got 50% off cakes itz? i can't rem. fri n sat got 50% off waffles after 10 pm. So we restaurant hopped to cafe cartel after that.. cox after 9 there's 50% off all cakes. Was talking loads of crap there while gorging(k la not really) and snatching(away from sean) the cakes ard. haha..

tuition marathon tmr! fri sun mon! sian no fate with AH. they called when i was sleeping this morning. who ask me to off phone. but the thing was they jus told me yest they not hiring ppl liao. sianz. i m still jobless.

Oh i finally gotten my phantom of opera cd.. the live recording version of the one at the esplanade. the hmv vouchers came in handy! 30.95 is quite exp after all

And i queued 3 hrs for donut factory. can't believe i persisted. Things u can do when u have so much time after exams eh. Hahaha..