你不是真正的快乐
词/曲:阿信 主唱：五月天

人群中哭着
你只想变成透明的颜色
你再也不会
梦或痛或心动了
你已经决定了
你已经决定了

你静静忍着
紧紧把昨天在拳心握着
而回忆越是甜
就是越伤人了
越是在手心留下
密密麻麻深深浅浅的刀割

你不是真正的快乐
你的笑只是
你穿的保护色
你决定不恨了
也决定不爱了
把你的灵魂
关在永远锁上的躯壳

这世界笑了
於是你合群的一起笑了
当生存是规则
不是你的选择
於是你含着眼泪
飘飘荡荡跌跌撞撞的走着

你不是真正的快乐
你的笑只是
你穿的保护色
你决定不恨了
也决定不爱了
把你的灵魂
关在永远锁上的躯壳

你不是真正的快乐
你的伤从不肯
完全的愈合
我站在你左侧
却像隔着银河
难道就真的抱着遗憾
一直到老了
然后才后悔着

你不是真正的快乐
你的笑只是
你穿的保护色
你决定不恨了
也决定不爱了
把你的灵魂
关在永远锁上的躯壳

你不是真正的快乐
你的伤从不肯
完全的愈合
我站在你左侧
却像隔着银河
难道就真的抱着遗憾
一直到老了

你值得真正的快乐
你应该脱下
你穿的保护色
为什麽失去了
还要被惩罚呢
能不能就让悲伤
全部结束在此刻
重新开始活着

一面听着歌，一面看着歌词，我的眼眶都湿了。

Oh yes its almost almost over. 1 more paper! N its mcq paper=P haha heck alr. Shyt man my DFD CA grades are cui. both below average. But o well. Dun care le hope can still pull thru a B+

I think i am addicted to the azuki red bean coffee weird combi at tcc. I ordered it again today but tried the cold version instead. I simply love azuki red beans. Mayb i shld get daryl to buy back 1 packet for me from japan n cook n put it in my own coffee rather than paying 9 bucks for a drink. And got to eat my fav marutama ramen at central!

And I am out of job for the hols. I think I shall go to my tutee's house everyday and earn some pocketmoney since his mum is like dying to pay me to go n babysit him. LOL.

My mum was saying that she din dare to talk to me too much for the past few days cox i haven speaking alot. She said i look as if that if I were to open my mouth some info will leak. dangs. damn funny la. it will still leak anyhow.

Argh pharmaco is mad. they shld combine pharmaco 1 and 2 and make it into 3 modules.

Argh i feel so cheated abt the stupid carcinogernic qns. All i rem abt tt slide was the simpsons picture with a 3-eyed gold fish on the pan! And i clearly rem the lecturer said no need to rem the examples jus know the categories and moreover all the types of cancers listed were covered by that blardy picture. kaoz!

Mon - AMK lib
Tue - Bugis Lib
Wed - Bugis Lib
Thu - Bishan Lib
Fri - Bishan Lib
Sat - shall it be home or lib again?

I am such a nerd. Visiting lib seems to be my newly accquired hobby. Studied from 10am to 8pm today. Madness. Almost can camp there liao. And for all my pharmer frens out there, demeclocycline inhibits the ACTION of ADH, it does not inihibit the PRODCUTION of ADH. Dammit. Now i owe feli a drink. LOL.

-Dreamanalyzer-

Do u have one? Isn't it a irony that even tho dreams are nonsensical most of the time but ppl are disturbed by it. Well at least I am. Crap. like 2 days in a row alr. Its a bad feeling to start the day with. U guys up there in my head better stoppit.

I need a superbrain or a doraemon. haha.

Guess today's pharmaco was like WOW. MIND BLOWING. LOL. Prob one of the most challenging paper in our entire pharm course ever to date. I thot normally if the content is very hard to study the paper woun be too hard but i was very very wrong man. The power of antibiotics. Was practially guessing thru the whole paper. And after the test at 9.30pm pia-ed till 6pm to finish the JS project. Almost died with minimal sleep last nite. lUckily i slept abit during the lecture. See stars see moon see saturn alr. But oh well we're done n over with it. TT kinda sums up our sucky official last day of the sem.

Interview yesterday was like -_- Once again i was quite unprepared. The pdt manager was like so how will u market this pdt, how differently would u do it, And i can't even rem to say the 4Ps and stuff. lol. But then upon hearing the jobscope I had half the mind of whether i wan to take up the job. involves going ard child care centres to promote pdts. I am now half hoping they will not take me. I jus can't wait to get to taiwan and soak into the hotspring n shop n eat.

How come I am the only one who doesn't feel like mugging n still wan to go out. Mayb i really need to reflect. Maybe i'll do a better job in my bed. its so nice to sleep with this kind of weather.

OK thank you chek wun. I said everyone liao eh. Nvm just for u i type ur name out..

I have been eating like nobody's business. ha wads new. Had steamboat followed by dessert on friday, and today i had kway chup for lunch and went sun with moon for dinner. Yes. I adore jap food. haha. i have been fortunate to eat it 3 wks in a row. lol.

- Reflections of a Skyline -

Watch this. Really beautiful. You woun regret it. Def worth spending less time on med chem. Haz

The annual birthday post.

Okay I realise I should still have a blog post today.

Thank you everyone for all the well wishes and esp the pharmers namely, cheryl, van, vivian, xinyong, jiawei, yanting, jielin, kaihui, sean, bingxun, felicia, raymond, baxter, chernyih, jasmine, shane, kelvin, choonpei n xuena =) Its really a nice watch =) Its really heartening to have so many of u all sharing my present. 让你们颇费了=) Terimah Kasih, 谢谢、ありがとうございました！ok i dunno thai i lose liao. Ok i know Merci!

Last of all, my present for myself. Tada! I'm amazed by my squeezing skills.

I hope i can decipher this tmr.

The unusual blue.

I woke up with my heart racing like mad. its prob like 80 or 90/min. Mad.
And sleep quality was atrocious.

Think many ppl din have a gd monday to begin the week with. So do I. So hey there u're not alone. Mon is gonna b over soon. Maybe its the 1st mon of the month. So its more powerful.

Random ramblings.

Had the annual scorpio bday dinner last nite. Hopefully it can stay as an annual event. thankful tt all of us made it. nice catching up =) how come we din take any pictures?

Had this superb set at ichibanboshi with sashimi, wagyu beef hotplate, chawamushi, miso soup and rice. yum. And had azuki coffee WITHOUT whipped cream at tcc. I m such a jap food/ jap associated food fanatic. I think u can put me one mth or prob 1 yr in japan n i will nv get sick of the food there.

I m not competing seriously. like wad for after all tt has happened. I am jus making myself happier. Elv said tt no one will take me seriously with my kind of hair, but somehow mayb i've been too serious for the past 22 yrs of my life.