你不是真正的快乐
词/曲:阿信 主唱：五月天

人群中哭着
你只想变成透明的颜色
你再也不会
梦或痛或心动了
你已经决定了
你已经决定了

你静静忍着
紧紧把昨天在拳心握着
而回忆越是甜
就是越伤人了
越是在手心留下
密密麻麻深深浅浅的刀割

你不是真正的快乐
你的笑只是
你穿的保护色
你决定不恨了
也决定不爱了
把你的灵魂
关在永远锁上的躯壳

这世界笑了
於是你合群的一起笑了
当生存是规则
不是你的选择
於是你含着眼泪
飘飘荡荡跌跌撞撞的走着

你不是真正的快乐
你的笑只是
你穿的保护色
你决定不恨了
也决定不爱了
把你的灵魂
关在永远锁上的躯壳

你不是真正的快乐
你的伤从不肯
完全的愈合
我站在你左侧
却像隔着银河
难道就真的抱着遗憾
一直到老了
然后才后悔着

你不是真正的快乐
你的笑只是
你穿的保护色
你决定不恨了
也决定不爱了
把你的灵魂
关在永远锁上的躯壳

你不是真正的快乐
你的伤从不肯
完全的愈合
我站在你左侧
却像隔着银河
难道就真的抱着遗憾
一直到老了

你值得真正的快乐
你应该脱下
你穿的保护色
为什麽失去了
还要被惩罚呢
能不能就让悲伤
全部结束在此刻
重新开始活着

一面听着歌，一面看着歌词，我的眼眶都湿了。

Oh yes its almost almost over. 1 more paper! N its mcq paper=P haha heck alr. Shyt man my DFD CA grades are cui. both below average. But o well. Dun care le hope can still pull thru a B+

I think i am addicted to the azuki red bean coffee weird combi at tcc. I ordered it again today but tried the cold version instead. I simply love azuki red beans. Mayb i shld get daryl to buy back 1 packet for me from japan n cook n put it in my own coffee rather than paying 9 bucks for a drink. And got to eat my fav marutama ramen at central!

And I am out of job for the hols. I think I shall go to my tutee's house everyday and earn some pocketmoney since his mum is like dying to pay me to go n babysit him. LOL.

My mum was saying that she din dare to talk to me too much for the past few days cox i haven speaking alot. She said i look as if that if I were to open my mouth some info will leak. dangs. damn funny la. it will still leak anyhow.

Argh pharmaco is mad. they shld combine pharmaco 1 and 2 and make it into 3 modules.

Argh i feel so cheated abt the stupid carcinogernic qns. All i rem abt tt slide was the simpsons picture with a 3-eyed gold fish on the pan! And i clearly rem the lecturer said no need to rem the examples jus know the categories and moreover all the types of cancers listed were covered by that blardy picture. kaoz!

Mon - AMK lib
Tue - Bugis Lib
Wed - Bugis Lib
Thu - Bishan Lib
Fri - Bishan Lib
Sat - shall it be home or lib again?

I am such a nerd. Visiting lib seems to be my newly accquired hobby. Studied from 10am to 8pm today. Madness. Almost can camp there liao. And for all my pharmer frens out there, demeclocycline inhibits the ACTION of ADH, it does not inihibit the PRODCUTION of ADH. Dammit. Now i owe feli a drink. LOL.

-Dreamanalyzer-

Do u have one? Isn't it a irony that even tho dreams are nonsensical most of the time but ppl are disturbed by it. Well at least I am. Crap. like 2 days in a row alr. Its a bad feeling to start the day with. U guys up there in my head better stoppit.

I need a superbrain or a doraemon. haha.

Guess today's pharmaco was like WOW. MIND BLOWING. LOL. Prob one of the most challenging paper in our entire pharm course ever to date. I thot normally if the content is very hard to study the paper woun be too hard but i was very very wrong man. The power of antibiotics. Was practially guessing thru the whole paper. And after the test at 9.30pm pia-ed till 6pm to finish the JS project. Almost died with minimal sleep last nite. lUckily i slept abit during the lecture. See stars see moon see saturn alr. But oh well we're done n over with it. TT kinda sums up our sucky official last day of the sem.

Interview yesterday was like -_- Once again i was quite unprepared. The pdt manager was like so how will u market this pdt, how differently would u do it, And i can't even rem to say the 4Ps and stuff. lol. But then upon hearing the jobscope I had half the mind of whether i wan to take up the job. involves going ard child care centres to promote pdts. I am now half hoping they will not take me. I jus can't wait to get to taiwan and soak into the hotspring n shop n eat.

How come I am the only one who doesn't feel like mugging n still wan to go out. Mayb i really need to reflect. Maybe i'll do a better job in my bed. its so nice to sleep with this kind of weather.

OK thank you chek wun. I said everyone liao eh. Nvm just for u i type ur name out..

I have been eating like nobody's business. ha wads new. Had steamboat followed by dessert on friday, and today i had kway chup for lunch and went sun with moon for dinner. Yes. I adore jap food. haha. i have been fortunate to eat it 3 wks in a row. lol.

- Reflections of a Skyline -

Watch this. Really beautiful. You woun regret it. Def worth spending less time on med chem. Haz

The annual birthday post.

Okay I realise I should still have a blog post today.

Thank you everyone for all the well wishes and esp the pharmers namely, cheryl, van, vivian, xinyong, jiawei, yanting, jielin, kaihui, sean, bingxun, felicia, raymond, baxter, chernyih, jasmine, shane, kelvin, choonpei n xuena =) Its really a nice watch =) Its really heartening to have so many of u all sharing my present. 让你们颇费了=) Terimah Kasih, 谢谢、ありがとうございました！ok i dunno thai i lose liao. Ok i know Merci!

Last of all, my present for myself. Tada! I'm amazed by my squeezing skills.

I hope i can decipher this tmr.

The unusual blue.

I woke up with my heart racing like mad. its prob like 80 or 90/min. Mad.
And sleep quality was atrocious.

Think many ppl din have a gd monday to begin the week with. So do I. So hey there u're not alone. Mon is gonna b over soon. Maybe its the 1st mon of the month. So its more powerful.

Random ramblings.

Had the annual scorpio bday dinner last nite. Hopefully it can stay as an annual event. thankful tt all of us made it. nice catching up =) how come we din take any pictures?

Had this superb set at ichibanboshi with sashimi, wagyu beef hotplate, chawamushi, miso soup and rice. yum. And had azuki coffee WITHOUT whipped cream at tcc. I m such a jap food/ jap associated food fanatic. I think u can put me one mth or prob 1 yr in japan n i will nv get sick of the food there.

I m not competing seriously. like wad for after all tt has happened. I am jus making myself happier. Elv said tt no one will take me seriously with my kind of hair, but somehow mayb i've been too serious for the past 22 yrs of my life.

Are u hit by the quarter-life crisis?
which means u will prob live until 80+, which i think is gd enough for me)

- do u avoid whipped cream in coffeebean/starbuck even if u used to adore.
- go to facebook n do alot of bo liao things online
- constantly feeling low n need to do things to keep urself high

Haha my practising pharmacist fren was suggesting such a diagnosis of my condition. O well maybe. Haha.

Anw K-box was fun.. wheres the video of the 2 mad women filmed by me?

My head is just swirling now.

I din know the virus in the flu vaccine were cultivated from eggs until i asked the gp how come he asked abt egg allergy b4 giving the jab haha.

It feels gd to be able to talk to someone abt things more freely and some1 who can understds my predicament. thanks man.

Anyway fri at sushitei was fun and gd too. Jap food always rocks. N the rochor tauhuaY!

Wah this wk is a one hell of a emo week. Jus look at everybody's blog. With pharmaco test on mon, and the back to back release of 3 test results within sth like 18 hrs? Think its like a rollercoaster ride for everyone. I m glad that my endorphins from mon n tues workout helped a little. As memebers of the SADDIST emo club, since everyone is emoing, we shld rejoice! ahaha. kidding. At least the long wkend is near. Can't wait for fri to come. But then so wad if there's a LWE? haz.

My whole arm is so damn blardy sour after mon's gym session n today's virgin attempt at climbing. Last time in sec sch n jc just climb up as high as possible touch the top den ok le, now must swing here swing there like monkey la so i guess the prior exp is not counted. I can't even write properly now. Haha rock climbing is certainly not easy. I think it trains u not to think so much n not hesitate when executing ur moves cox once u stop u drop. lol.but then somehow u must know where to cling on n step on. or maybe my arms are jus too nua. my arms n legs are so wobbly la. lol cui man. but anw nice experience.

While talking cock today, someone said that our unhappiness and anger, eg how we complain that why ppl treat us this way or hurt us, somwhow stems from our own selfish gains and personal wants/desires. So if we are less selfish, we will emo less and be happier.
Well I agree only to a certain extent, and was unable to express my thots at tt pt in time. Ok sometimes I will also be more angry at myself raher than upset about y other ppl do this to me. Like i will question myself: why will I think this way and how come I have this kind of reaction. Mayb this self-expectation is also a form of selfishness? Or is this part of an ego and self confidence issue?

Went timbre yesterday again! think no one would b as mad as us to go when there's like pharmaco on mon lol=P but prob the rebelious inner monster in us had enuff of mugging. so actually all the more we need to chill! Mcvin came to 客串 for awhille too. Its great to have such sporty frens to rave up fri nites. Great company! lol=P Went lau pat sat to eat w cp b4 that too. another satisfying food therapy session!

Chinese Lesson Time

According to 时代高级汉语词典，炸is pronounced as 炸（2ndsound）when it comes to food stuff like 油炸(zha2)食物 or 炸（zha2)薯条 and it is pronounced as 炸(4th sound) when it comes to all other things with the word, like bomb炸弹。

So i'm not wrong ok!

Updates for the past wk

Mon: New haircut/hairstyle. fresher n younger=) quite well received too haha.

Wed: Car wash in NUS. its like my third yr washing n i was really wondering when will it b my turn to send my car for ppl to wash instead. luckily it was only 1 day as i was jus helping cp. but it was fun.

Thurs: Went settlers to celeb kaihui's birthday. How come all of a sudden bday celeb became sabo session. gasps.

Fri: SE club meeting =)=) I can't imagine fridays w/o u all alr. We have new member n guest chernyih n raymond. doubt the latter wans to b a member. lol. Really enjoyed the company, bitching n heart baring sessions.



Sat: Its a-ME-day

Sun: Dim sum buffet at Miramar hotel w tmc guys. Value for money $20.10 only. haha. Food therapy rox.


the table at 1 point in time. think there were 14 longs at tt time. NS guys are certainly a menance for buffet restaurants.

稻香
曲:周杰伦词:周杰伦
对这个世界如果你有太多的抱怨
跌倒了就不敢继续往前走
为什么人要这么的脆弱堕落

请你打开电视看看
多少人为生命在努力勇敢的走下去
我们是不是该知足
珍惜一切就算没有拥有

还记得你说家是唯一的城堡
随着稻香河流继续奔跑
微微笑小时候的梦我知道

不要哭让萤火虫带着你逃跑
乡间的歌谣永远的依靠
回家吧回到最初的美好

不要这黱容易就想放弃
就像我说的
追不到的梦想换个梦不就得了
为自己的人生鲜艳上色
先把爱涂上喜欢的颜色

笑一个吧功成名就不是目的
让自己快乐快乐这才叫做意义
童年的纸飞机
现在终於飞回我手里

所谓的那快乐
赤脚在田里追蜻蜓追到累了
偷摘水果被蜜蜂给叮到怕了
谁在偷笑呢
我靠着稻草人吹着风唱着歌睡着了

哦哦午后吉它在虫鸣中更清脆
哦哦阳光洒在路上就不怕心碎
珍惜一切就算没有拥有

还记得你说家是唯一的城堡
随着稻香河流继续奔跑
微微笑小时候的梦我知道
不要哭让萤火虫带着你逃跑
乡间的歌谣永远的依靠
回家吧回到最初的美好

快乐是可以如此的简单，但有多少人能够真正的领悟。一层层的怨恨，抱怨，沮丧覆盖着那精疲力尽的身心，难道这就这是现今都市人盲目追求的“快乐”吗？