Argh jus needed to whine. This sem is really horrible shity madness *(&*(@#@@!# I'm like constantly thinking what work I have left and which one should i start doing now and tmr n the day after n after n after. tmr's pharm pract lect is 140+ slides, so its going to be twice the already-wan-to-die-speed on mon when we had 80+ slides. The amt of content for pharmaco,pharm pract n microb is jus overwhelming la. Suddenly pharm analysis seems like the nicest module evn tho its like the most boring. Hai why r we studying so hard for ah? so wad if i get 2nd upp / 3rd honours? big deal meh.
Every CNY relatives nv fail to ask me wad i'm studying n wad plans i have when i graduate, den some will tell me ooh pharmacy..itz under medicine? hmm gd prospects hor..(den the nxt min)but den wad can u work as ah? den some will say pharmacist ah.. those at guardian like so boring.. den those at hosipital always kena scolding hor... yadayada. I know some are jus asking out of concern, to have a conversation topic, but it jus makes me feel sian. I know actually sometimes we are already in a much better and fortunate position than many other same age peers out there, but frankly speaking, looking at how my peers are potentially going to make a millions bucks nxt time n i'm facing a real possibility of a noble job of educating the public, ensuring medication safety for my patients ENsuRing Quality treatment n patient safety.. WOah sounds great isn't it? I know i m sound damn superficial here, but the qns jus hits me evry now n then.. WAd the hell m i doing man? What do i really want?
Sigh. i feel like a robot everyday.. follow thru the motion of getting my work done, attending lectures, meeting deadlines. when can i be enlightened? I'm still haven found a satisfactory answer and a greter purpose to what i m doing now. i guess many of us have the same doubts as me i suppose.
OKie i m done whining. haha i m fine la.. jus ramblings =) back to reality n work. Jiayou everyone out there! pharmers esp! we r noble ppl! haha