I dun mean to be superstitious or wad.. some how bad things seem to occur after one another ever since the start of u-know-wad month. My auntie(da-gu) passed away yesterday.. actually she was already pronounced brain dead on friday. I was really stunned when dad called me from malaysia(most of my paternal side relatives are in KL) on friday..she had this benign brain tumour and underwent a surgery on monday.. Was kinda worried initially cox the op was already delayed b4hand due to her HBP, but dad called on tues saying that the op was successful so I thot everything was fine and over. But things took a turn and her condition kinda deteriorated on thurs/fri i think, her BP became very unstable and eventually causing her brain to suffer from a lack of oxygen..and...

I can't help but feel abit affected even though I'm not very close to her, mainly due to infrequent communication and contact.. think the last time i saw her was in dec'03.. but she's always been a very nice and caring aunt, and worthy of my respect. i really din expect things to turn out this way.. Somehow I dunno why i feel abit guilty or wad, I think its just me regretting not seeing her for the last time and spending more time with her b4 she left. Should I have went back to KL with my dad for the past 2 weeks.. haiz. To everyone out there, thought its a very old saying but pls cherish the ppl around u, b4 its too late. Somehow I feel abit guilty for spending my weekend as per normal, its not as if i'm cold blooded, but i just feel that cooping myself at home and brooding over it will not make things better.. Haiz.. I hope my dad is feeling okie..

And now I have this grandaunt in hospital now waiting to go into operating theatre, she has HBP too... think she has some gall bladder infection or dunno wad. not v sure. I really hope she will be fine.