Have to thank mum for asking me to watch 稀游记 the Ch U documentary abt extraordinary Singaporeans in foreign lands. The episode aroused my interest as it was featuring the life of a medical social worker in kunming, yunnan who mainly visits/counsel ppl who are mentally ill. And she mainly works with 傈僳 (li su) tribe ppl.. which happens to be the same tribe of ppl we interacted with back in my dec yunnan trip.

What she does is indeed admirable and respectable. She doesn't get paid a single cent and have to climb like how many thousand ft and go thru god knows wad kind of treacherous journey just to visit one or 2 mentally ill patient/orphans every week/few days. Compared to the mini hill we climbed up to the leper's village then, which was a one off thing and not a v difficult journey, I really shldn't complain.

Then there was this 26 yr old male patient that they featured, who suffers from schizophrenia. He has been locked up in a wooden fenced up area prob abt 1m x 1m space for 8 yrs. EIGHT YRS. and he hasn't came out since. he has been sitting there for eight years. forgotten how to stand. forgotten how to do aything. Doesn't bathe. Does his business at a corner. CAN U IMAGINE. How can such a thing happen to anyone, to any human? And whats even more shocking and saddening its that when he was locked up there 8 yrs ago he did it willingly as he was too guilty that he set his own house up on fire. As in he JUST SAT THERE and WATCH THE FENCE BUILD UP ARD HIM. 8 YEARS since. 8 YEARs. I'm jus speechless. 心情好沉重. SIGH.

The state of lack of medical knowledge, treatment and misconception of many diseases are just appaling. The idea of a lepers village at the top of a secluded hill away from civilization, and that fence thing are all a result of lack of medical help and knowledge. The people simply jus do not know wad to do with these group of ppl with medical condition, hence they can only think of such saddening and extreme methods to isolate all these patients. Its jus damn saddening. And that medical social worker was saying how she wished that there could be doctors treating them, sufficient meds, rehab and stuff which is near impossible in these poverty stricken rural areas.

I suddenly have the urge to go back to yunnan. But what i can do? bring more trouble to them? Sighz. I'm simply not ready to give everything i've got. We definitely benifited much more from the trip than those ppl we were trying to help.

What can i do from the knowledge of pharmacy? Can I use it to help these ppl? Am i that 伟大 in the 1st place? What do i really wan out of these 4 yrs of pharmacy.

I'm thinking too much. And getting emo. time to sleep. I jus hope that all these ppl get better treatment.

Went to sentosa on sunday. It wasn't crazy kind of fun but it was jus nice..the new attractions weren't exactly fantastic. but sentosa does seem to be a much nicer place.. as in def a lot more details and effort went to make the place more pleasing. flowers blah.. yah u get the idea. guess eventually it was the company n v relaxed mood that mattered more. =)

First day of work... Oh i'm employed by AH after all as pharmacy assistant. At the outpatient pharmacy. Finding my job so mundane and stressful and tiring but time really flies. Its almost no time to rest/slack. Totally felt like a factory worker. My job is to help pack all the prescribed items lo.. requires u to be accurate and fast.. the amount and types of drugs they have is of cox small house see big house compared to my NS days. See until i blur blur^infinity... Made a couple of mistakes but they din scold me la.. but still very paiseh. But I nv get wrong drug or wrong strength at least. Haha self consolation. Its always the quantity. Dunno eh jus can't count properly. Quantities so weird cox 1 strip of tab, some is 14, some is 7, some is 30. den the quanity required is in few hundereds sometimes. like 123? or i did one with 1068 today. Siao one la. Certainly need time to get used to it. But the ppl there are not bad la quite friendly..

Suddenly, the job as a hospital pharmacist(in the hospital pharmacy per se) seems alot less appealing tho they aren't the ones that pack(sometimes they do when short handed), they check thru prescriptions, fill in/key in orders, counter check the stuff we pack, dispense/counsel patients, consult/discuss with doctors/patients over the phone, manage ppl like us....and lotsa of rubbish i haven go find out from them.. Hope to find out more abt their jobscope as time goes by. but there are other pharmacists in the hospital la.. those in the wards..blah still got alot of other areas i guess.

almost blew my brains out jus now.. bout of sneezing started while i was on the bus to marina sq(it went to shenton way instead =( too long nv take 162 beyond city hall) so i popped a panadol flu. Or paracetamol + Pseudoephidrine (generic name i shld start using them more often) haha wadever. den jus now after i showered it came back again so pop goes in another tablet. but now ok le. weird..

Went to k box today. pity we didn't have time for the jin1 qu3 s. All the deng li juns and xiao hu duis were left unsang. And still got alot of new songs i wan to sing.

Changing Appetites dinner with ahnehkins... the food is not bad. but jus rem to go there on tues, fri and sat.. cox tues got 50% off cakes itz? i can't rem. fri n sat got 50% off waffles after 10 pm. So we restaurant hopped to cafe cartel after that.. cox after 9 there's 50% off all cakes. Was talking loads of crap there while gorging(k la not really) and snatching(away from sean) the cakes ard. haha..

tuition marathon tmr! fri sun mon! sian no fate with AH. they called when i was sleeping this morning. who ask me to off phone. but the thing was they jus told me yest they not hiring ppl liao. sianz. i m still jobless.

Oh i finally gotten my phantom of opera cd.. the live recording version of the one at the esplanade. the hmv vouchers came in handy! 30.95 is quite exp after all

And i queued 3 hrs for donut factory. can't believe i persisted. Things u can do when u have so much time after exams eh. Hahaha..

I 've been wanting to write this post... My Post Exam Post haha

for the others... a few more days only.. hang on! =)

Wad a paper to end with. I actually find this LSM open book mcq paper the hardest of all papers.. so stressful.. and the exam table suddenly seems so small.. my notes nearly flew all over n the txtbk nearly fell off. Nxt in difficulty level - marketing.. 44 marks from 2 essays.. which i scribbled rubbish.. rubbish that would be insufficient even if it was coherent.

Well I shld do better this sem considering i have one less mod to study if not i will kill myself(i hope i dun have to) or get another 'physical pharm' shock(I've a weak heart pls dun let it happen again)
Sighz. can only hope for the best. haha. Hols~ 3 mths!~ i'm gonna make tt movies webpage tt kenvin recc my homepage.

Mcvin was saying we are no more freshies le! man time flies.
We were back at carl's junior AGAIN. Just that sean wasn't in his fav shirt? Ok the terrestial n Indonesian ppl were missed as well. Can we go some other meaty place nxt sem. Haz!

I wanted to work immediately.. but AH is so inefficient.. and TTSH nv contact me le. Heard from kaihui KK looking for ppl. shall try there also. dowan to wait le. go there learn more abt women. =X haha and children.
Actually i wonder if it is a gd idea to find a temp job at these hospital pharmacies. that would mean spending all 4 hols of my uni yrs there. But then again there mite ba possibilty that i'll b there evey day after 4 yrs. so wads the big deal? And moreover i'm paid at least 6/hr now. compared to 5 a day during prereg. so tt could b considered a difference? haha. i need money to go hk at the end of the yr anw. MONEY!

And of cox. Camp. Headache. alot of unsettled stuff. But shld b fun i hope.

套一句 marketing tutor 的话:
打战时,要越战越勇!! 千万不可在最后的紧要关头松懈下来! 所以不要再偷懒了!! 加油 =)

The Phantom of the Opera...Inside my mind...

I can't wait to get the cd..the songs are really stuck in my head

The stage effects and props were really WOW. liked the river and boat scene the most. And of course the powerful vocals.

I wan to watch it again!

9 more days..hurrryyyyyy

I feel like my head is gonna overflow. and burst.. the neurons bursting into flames due to too much firing! and all the tracts are all jammed up. and wadever~ my poor puny brain is jus too overtortured n abused too badly.

ignore me..

ya dun worry we will all survive this.

In order not to disappoint my fans who often come n see no new posts.. tada! i'm blogging. haha

Ya guess my life is ya.. as interesting as urs if u wan to know. mug n mug lo.

Jus some random observation.. realise that there's this over usage of the word hub. eveything's hub hub and hub. From, tourism hub, biomedical hub to HDB Hub n AMK Hub(i jus walked past today) to starhub... i'm jus wondering la.. doesn't all this make eveyone a hubber. wadever.

Overall, i felt that the modules this sem are making much more sense and certainly much more interesting, no doubt i still complain abt how difficult it is to study for the exams.

gov n politics:
really gives an insight to many unknown controversies or conspiracies(shhz =X) Gives an understanding to why certain policies(like pay rise.. shhhz..) must be there.. and blah.. and also makes u more aware of the current moves of the gov.. blah. I mus say its rather an eye opener module to a certain extent.

mkting:
After pharm pract, realised that almost every job scope of potential paths in the future has got a marketing component in it. So wad are u pharmers waiting for? Sort of enjoyed the module i guess.

Physio:
wads new. oh maybe the pseudohermarphroditism part of repro was interesting.

Pharm pract:
Its a v gd to know module.. i think it would b damn nice if we are not tested.. cox i really dunno how to study. Am i suppose to memorise MOH's mission statement? And all the professionalism stuff Ya u know wad i'm talking abt.

Biochem:
I simply dun like this module. Its jus plain boring. someone pls teach me how to appreciate this.

yesterday's session was far from therapeutic. haha. weird. -_- nvm nxt time ba. but dun worry your hair is nice.

I'm still stuck with my SS essay. After marketing, now the SS haunt is on. in a few weeks time.. the physio haunt, pp haunt, biochem haunt and marketing hanut - with a vengeance would b back as well. All at the same time. Or shld i say it has already started? if only i could throw dice to determine when does haunt begin like the hilltop haunted house board game. Aha. God help me.. all these ghosts go away la.

Sianz. -_-

i reckon by the time i finish my SS the music n lyrics would have turned into a classic oldie. how ah >.<

The colorgenics test - http://www.paulgoldinresearch.com/cg/

At this time you are feeling 'uptight' and you are urgently in need of rest and relaxation; but perhaps even more than that you need to overcome that feeling that you have been 'hard done by' and treated with a complete lack of consideration. Maybe you have, but whatever may have been the cause of your inherent anxiety, you regard the situation as intolerable. Your are, however, sufficiently competent to turn that situation around - you have overcome similar problems in the past, and really this one isn't too different.

You are working extremely hard - perhaps even above and beyond the call of duty. You are preparing for the future and therefore trying to build a firm trouble-free foundation upon which you may base all of your dreams and aspirations.

You have a high opinion of yourself. It is perhaps because of this self-centredness that you become exasperated when you feel that your needs are misinterpreted by those around you. When this happens - and it does quite often - you feel that there is no-one that can understand the way you feel and it is because of this egocentric self that you are quick to take offence.

Stresses resulting from a recent disappointment have led to considerable trepidation. It would seem that there seems to be so much left undone. Everything surrounds you with that air of uncertainty. You badly need to feel a sense of security and whatever it takes to protect you against further disappointment. At this particular time you doubt that things could be any better in the future but you are sticking to your guns and refusing to take advice from any source.

Since in the recent past all of your hopes and aspirations have been denied you, you are now convinced that the future will hold nothing but anxiety so therefore 'why bother?' You would love to get away from it all, to escape from the trials and tribulations of this mundane existence and fall into a peaceful and harmonious relationship, which will protect you from the lack of appreciation and give you the chance to start afresh.

haven blogged for ages.. sch is.. yes the same. how interesting can it get. other than sci canteen getting best nus canteen. wth. sth wrong with those ppl's taste buds. i aren't tt picky rite.
sligtly slacker in terms of lects and tuts but certainly not in terms of the things to mug and do. Ok i talking fei hua here.

metup with the cathigh gang. Finally! haha i think i missed u all.. n kc we all love u la. no need to express ur love for me so openly on the tagboard. shyt i sound so gay. Ya u all rulzz..for today only. haha no la.

meeting up with therapy group nxt wk. also v long nv see them liao... yay.

coffee taste ever better than b4. =P so do milo rite.

I never knew that other ppl's blogs could have such an impact on me. seriously.. i should go wake up my idea..

in any case, i m thankful that marketing is over. time to catch up my other modules and high time to start on my SS assignment.

can't seem to stop snacking. help. especially snacking ties in closely with mugging according to jw's theory. which is a gd thing also actually. means i m doing work. but still its bad.

caught just follow law with my mum. haha. i always watch jack neo's production with her. it has become a movie-ly affair.

Its quite nice actually. really reminded me of my army days. damn damn funny. the shooting of arrows, the email CC & BCC thingy, the not following chain of command(shoot letters or email to the top is the most effective/fastest way to-get-things-done method), pushing ard n siaming of saikang n blame, the humchi-ness of so and so, the no. of secret stores or things to condemn or the huge amt of dunno-where-to-put but can't throw items. ahaha. I can't elaborate much la. wait i kena jailed or wad. but its really hilarious. Fann wong's n gurmit's performance were rather commendable too. but.. ahaha go watch on mon n tues la. 7 bucks. shld b worth it.

saw 7 lamborghinis parked outside hilton hotel today.

Madness man. Totally.

what a sight to behold lo. Got red, orange, yellow n black i think
so many ppl were taking pictures n my lousy cam on my hp couldn't capture them together clearly.

7 million dollars worth parked outside the hotel hahaha. imagine them turned into 1 dollar coins. u will drown in it la. i dunno how come i have such a weird idea suddenly.

16 hours

1/2 bottle of pineapple tarts (opps =P)

16 rounds

4 x东南西北 each

4 new mahjong kakis n free 4 pairs of panda eyes

1 buck overall profit

1 Macdonald's big breakfast (courtesy of cheryl, thanks for being a great host too!)

That was how my fri afternn/mid nite/sat morning was spent. Of cox not forgeting the irritating but thrilling daidee game we had earlier b4 the mahjong marathon. haha new yr rox.

Bon Voyage CH! prepare for our arrival in dec!!
Bon voyage KC! Dun angry we din send u off this time rd la.. Brother brother woun mind de rite? muaha.
Guess the cathhigh gang woun meetup soon prob until nxt sem break le. haa jiayous in wadever u all are doing ba.

Sch's starting tmr? ya like tmr. yes its tmr. sianz big time.

realised i haven been updating as frequently as i normally do. i think this is wad i called bottleneck-瓶颈 lol~ talking cock. anw 祝大家新年快乐, 猪年行大运!! =)

CNY has been pretty normal for me.. other than me upgrading to 表叔 or 表舅. haha my new niece luvs the sound of the mahjong. She's less than a month old.. n she performs flutter kicks n chuckles when we wash the tiles, and the thing is the mahjong table is jus bside the bed.. n she can fall asleep peacefully later when we're still playing. I think my cousin must have been playing alot of mahjong when she was pregnant. Excellent 胎教 man. Welcome to the mahjong family =) Oh ya btw she's called jielin. its like the 4th jielin i've heard or met. More jielins.. O.o

Ya of cox wads new yr without mahjong... I'm still in the positive region now since the 1st day heee..

Went marina to look at the 运势 of the 十二生肖. The OX one looked really bad la.. Everything from health, career, money to love.. everything is jus BAD. Its worse than the rabbit one lo cp. N i dunno y u so paranoid. haha.

Break more than 1/2 way thru liao. n i barely touched my sch work.. but its okie! i dun have any tests when sch starts! can u believe it? n i m in pharmacy.. how is tt possible?! haha shyt. M i gloating? haha no la. i shall do some work too. still got 3,4 more days. =)

Continue to have fun!

Phew i finally can breathe.. both literally n metaphorically.. or wadever la.

Crazy hectic week finally over and hols are finally here. hope i din do tt badly for physio.. but def not as well as the CA last sem. but nvm la..

Had a tmc reunion yest..at botak jones! not the tuas branch of cox.. went to the clementi one.. mayb nxt time can bring uni ppl there. nice n cheap western food... Had fun crapping abt the old times..Damn classic n hilarious jokes.. ahaha.. ayez those were the times man. nice to see everyone doing ok.

dinner with 77 peeps... this sem it has bcome thurs nites out instead of fridays.. but its okie cox i have no sch on alt fridays =P Muahaha. happy birthday again joa.

Yearly ritual of bouts of sneezing due to wiping away god-knows-how-come so much dust can accumulate, clearing away heaps n piles of rubbish, stoning n slacking n reminiscing while looking at old photos n cards n notes n letters/notes... ya my nose finally got back to normal. I laughed out aloud when i saw this card tt says from:cabbage (pls dun kill me if u're reading this =P)
oh ya i saw this customer service course booklet which i gotten during my NS days within the pile of mess.. then i saw this scenario based qns: You're at the dispensary, a patient hands in a prescription form and upon checking you realised you've run out of medication. What would you do? -- is this going to be our pharm pract exam qns =X haha.

Anyway, wish u guys have a great piggy year! Pigs are gonna rule the world tmr!! Best of luck in collecting angpaos n gambling =P n ya enjoy this break!!!

The world is really small indeed. But so long u're in it my world would b a happy one =)

busy week. And another busier week ahead. Pharm bazaar plus physio CA. but its ok CNY term break is coming =)

Had a great weekend =)

I think i m really stupid tho.
haha nvm time to get back to work.

0! 0! 7! BANG! AHHHHHHH!!!

haha this game tt nv fails to entertain. n its a darn effective recipe for generating highness n hysteria among ppl, laughter spasms n most imptly - to clear up our leftovers.

haha it was a damn fun night =)

Thanks for all the yummy food and all the fun of cox! I'm sure u all enjoyed my prawns n the banana choc =P haha. And a great birthday to all 4 birthday babies - yt, jl, jw n zuee =) (from most belated to the future. we are zai rite? celebrate 4 together)

haha u guys rox big time.